This is the story of the incident that changed my life...
This is a true event that changed my life forever, this happend 3 weeks ago, every second i am waiting to wake up. This sream i remember everythibg from the license plate nmber of the car to the clothes the driver had on.
have you ever had one of those dreams that felt so real you actually think it happened? i was with my little brother, i just picked him up from school we were walking home he is only 5 yet he is in year 1 (smart kid) on the way home he asked me to carry him on my shoulders, so we are walking home is only 5 min away when this speeding station wagon with the license plate number 007 bob loses control spins out and wipes me out, i lay their trying to remember what just happened everything suddenly goes quiet. i look up to see my little brother laying their, he is not moving i see no blood tho, i stand up my heart rate is going so fast i can feel my chest burning i pick him up i burst out with tears all i keep thinking is no this is not happening. an ambulance arrives i cant remember much after that...i wake up im in my house my mum is in tears i ask her what is the matter she keeps ignoring me, i go to bed when it all comes back to me, my eyes start watering i remember the ambulance telling me and my mum that he did not make it, i cry harder and herder till i cry myself to sleep. the next morning i wake up and lay their for another 30min crying till i get up go into the kitchen my mum is staring at me she says whats wrong? i said were is josh? (my little brother) she says still asleep in bed, then i realize its all a dream.
Have you ever heard the saying that you don't no what you got until its gone?..well after that dream the same day i went to school another normal day, school finished and i picked up my little brother we walked home, i felt nervous the whole way but we got home fine. my mum usually gets home 1 - 2hours after me, but this day i got home and my uncle was waiting at my house he was all dressed up in a black suit, he got out of his car and he said some words that i will never forget, THEIR HAS BEEN AN ACCIDENT YOUR MOTHER HAS HAD A SERIOUS HEART ATTACK AND SHE DIDN'T MAKE IT. those were his exact words, we got into his car and drove to his house, i didn't say anything the whole way. we got their i lay on the lounge while my little brother was watching some cartoons, all i could think about is how i am going to tell him that his mother is never coming home again, our mother...I'm not going to go into much detail what happened with the next few weeks but every night i keep having that same dream. were my little brother dies from the speeding station wagon, i would like to be able to let go of my feelings and remember my mum for who she was and not cry every time i think of her or every time i see my little brother. 3 weeks on now and i still don't think he understand that his mother is not coming home.
now that you have read what happened to my life i want you not to feel sorry for me but to be happy that i am moving on and remembering my mother as who she was, you always hear stories on the news but you never ever imagine it happening to you, it can happen to any one, i already feel better knowing that i am telling people what happened instead of leaving it all bunched up inside, 3 weeks and i am still having that bad dream all i want to no is when it will stop!
also i once said that i don't fear death
but now every day i fear....i fear that one day some one will be telling m little brother that his lost his only family his only brother...
the support i wish to seek is i want to stop fearing and i want to stop having these dreams. Thank you very much for reading this i wrote this quick and and am willing to post more if i get more time.