Stickly, i have some pretty "fucked up" mates but i love them, and in my eyes they're the best friends ill ever have.
You know how your parents or grandparents would always tell you "i used to have this friend when i was young... etc" well im certain ill be telling my kids about these mates.
let me tell you about A. A is a good guy, mentally hes ruined but hes a good guy and i know if it came down to it he would do anything for me. not alot of people can say they have mates that would litterally do anything for them in a pinch. society sees him as a drug fucked tradie but i just see him as my best mate and the dude who always has buds and pills.
before A and i started hanging out, he tried to kill himself 3 times and when i asked him he litterally said " i dont know man, i just feel like shit'
Do you really think he felt like shit on that many drugs? impossible. Ecstacy isnt called ecstacy because it makes you feel like shit man. and DMX and DMT arent scary drugs, they litterally make you dream of things that your subconsious wants to do. and when A and i sit down on my couch and smoke a Q ill be FUCKED if i can even get up and make a nuttella and icecream sandwich let alone try and kill myself..
Just because one person thinks that drugs are soley negative and all drug users/abusers should feel like the scum of the earth, doesnt make it so. BUT in the same sense dont let yourself use your drug habbits to bring yourself down.
You're only 17 like what the fuck could you have hoped to achieve, i didnt even get laid til i was 18 for fuck sake? wakeup in the morning and do what you have to do to keep yourself in a positive headspace. if the only responsibilites you have is to make your bed then make the shit out of it, double drop and then sleep in it.
life is boring because LIFE IS BORING. So make it fun, have ambitions and push yourself but at the same time live within your means and your age bracket.