Girlfriend problems

Man i'm 20 years old and im sitting here crying like a big baby. This shit hurts so bad and i just don't know what to do anymore.

My girlfriend and i have been together for a little over 2 years now and we've had our bumps in the road just like any other couple, but today shit just got real. We both agreed we can't be together and like i dont even know whats going on. Everything seems fake. Im in shock. I can't think straight and idk how to cope

This is the girl that was supposed to be my wife and the person who i grew old with and did everything and anything together with. I'm just so confused and im so hurt

I've had problems of self harm years ago and i tried committing suicide when i was 17 but obviously it was a failed attempt.

Life sucks. Women suck.

I feel so worthless and i feel no more meaning to continue to try and better myself

Idk why im posting here honestly, im just hoping theres someone out there who can relate or just people who can throw some advice at me... thank you in advanced..