Until we meet (hopefully?)

Well here I am, finally writing up about myself or finally writing about my current health situation. Won't be long and won't be short.

Let me tell you all about me in 10-20 lines;

2-3 year ago, I joined Sythe and I was an active member. Also an active gamer, and in my social life. In these times I can tell you I was the happiest, I was playing like a variety of games, going out, meeting new friends both real life and the internet (@Wortel and @Buyacc) everything was going normal.
Until I hit a certain day or event which I don't really remember that changed me 180 degrees. I was no longer interested in gaming, nor meet friends or people both real life and the internet hence why I was inactive the last couple months. Now in those couple of months I tried to solve the situation by myself. Hopefully by playing games and forcing myself to talk with people I'd get out of my depression. Oh and at this point I knew I'm facing depression because when I look at things I'm extremely unsatisfied and not happy. I was unhappy and unsatisfied with a lot of things.
Now I really tried my best helping myself but it couldn't get any better. I was too ashamed to ask help (medical wise, and from my best friends/parents). I even tried to play the games that I really liked osrs, cod, fortnite, pubg, and many other games. I even when back in time to play GTA San Andreas (LEGENDARY GAME) but yet didn't work to help me fight my depression back. Tried opening my services back (which by the way doing great, I was making like 100-200 a day all by myself). Tried going out but also didn't work. I just don't enjoy it anymore.
I even have a girlfriend but yet I just don't enjoy the company with ANYONE.
That's it. I don't enjoy anything, I don't enjoy life.

Now, in the present time. I can admit that I'm facing depression now you may ask this why? I'll answer you 3 things which sums up my current situation.
1. I do not enjoy life.
2. Nor do I like life anymore. Because everything is on a loop. My life is a loop. "Work wake sleep play eat go out sleep repeat".
3. I want it to end.

Those 3 things sums up my situation. And I think I'm going suicidal because those 3 steps is the end game.

So now, I'm sorry but I have to leave Sythe, I may or may not come back. I really (And I do mean it, really) don't know if I might be dead or not.

But thank you everyone, thank you for the good environment, thank you for everything.

Sebast[ian]

 

good luck and stay safe brotha. pms are always openeven though we've never met <3

 

Hey man,

I'm sorry to hear this. I seriously recommend that you find a medical specialist to talk to. I have gone through exactly what you're describing, and the best thing that helped me pop out of that continuous cycle is pursing something I love. I was depressed most of my time in High School, (now in college) and I found that being on the computer all day, and playing games was not only a waste of my time, but it was slowly draining me of my sanity. I would go to bed super late, and wake up in the afternoon. I would miss meals throughout the day because my time was consumed with video games or other things. I personally applied for jobs I thought that I would enjoy , and I met a lot of cool people. I slowly started to grow a new interest for aviation and started to take flying lessons with the money I made from washing planes, towing planes etc.. (I'm now almost finished with my degree, and my ratings and will have a job with an airline in the next year or so.)

The point I'm trying to make is that its important to mix up your time doing different things everyday. We're human, we like to be surrounded around things that we enjoy, but it's also important to mix things up every once in awhile.

I wish you the best of luck, and always remember there is a light at the end of the tunnel. You still have so much to experience and enjoy. Don't give up now! My inbox is open if you'd ever like to talk about anything. - Please seriously consider professional help; its out there.

Best,
Chad/Time Crunch

 

If shit really hits the fan then please do not hesitate to give this thread a visit. I myself deal with depressions on a daily basis and have been for several years, so it's nothing new to me - neither is it new to anyone else, because I'm fairly certain alot of users here deal with it. Sadly when you spent a high amount of Sythe it surely won't grant you any happiness (in fact the opposite) so I do think taking a break from Sythe is a good thing to do. In the period of time I've known you you seemed like a social human being at first glance but I can confirm that I haven't seen you around nor chatting with others for quite a while now. @BlackBlasses, @Buyacc and @Service Rs can most likely confirm the same thing for me, but that surely has another reason aswell, being part of the staff team.

If you ever need someone to talk to, then please do not hesitate to contact me, though I can highly encourage to let others know what you're dealing with in real life aswell. Best of luck with your future endavours and, until we meet again.

 

Find something meaningfull, would help with your depression. Just know everyone goes through it.

Start a business > Grow > and then s....sssss.qqqqqqqqq

 

Hey man sorry to hear this, Times can be tough and I genuinely hope you find something you love. Perhaps seek some medical help or simply try something so exotic or something that scares you.

Travel or get into fitness maybe? I hope you get this sorted though man there are always people who care about you.

 

going to the gym is actually a wonderful thing not only for physical but for your mental also. I have not dealt with depression so I do not know how it feels, and unless someone has walked a mile in the same shoes wont truly understand.

best of luck to you m8, i hope you can break out of your rut and the way you are feeling.

 

I couldn't agree more, It has mental and scientific benefits including the release of dopamine during a workout and personal confidence levels.

 

Sebastian we have never talked before but if you ever want to talk with someone new ( if that helps) I'm always here to talk with you about anything you want man ! Do not give up man it happens all the time find yourself hobies maybe a girl ? maybe bodybuilding or something else that u enjoy . Try helping poor irl people(that you don't know) thats what im doing when i feel depressed go help someone that needs help and look at their eyes. It will make you forget all the hassle of real life. @Sebast

 

May you find the peace with your mind you are looking for. Will pray for you.

 

@Sebast you were a good lad on the spamforum, may u find peace wherever u go buddy

 

Goodluck with your life pal! How about starting a new hobby?

 

This is actually very interesting. So many factors and values that can effect or alter ones mental state, I too deal with this daily. One day I can cope the next I am hanging by a thread wondering if its all even worth it. The "loop". I also just had my first newborn boy mind you he is completely beautiful and well behaved I thought and was waiting for him to arrive for a feeling of completeness but still I am left here to wonder..