SoulStriken
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8th of 8 kids. dad died when i was 11 of alcoholism.
rest of family fucked up my life from the beginning. from ages 0-9 my only real friend was my cat. my sister stuck pins in its neck, hidden under its collar. it stopped eating and died after two weeks. only later did i realise what happened.
brothers and sisters went to school before me, got a shitty name for the family by stabbing people, breaking teachers noses etc. once i arrived at school every teacher hated me without giving me a chance. i dreamt of being a paleontologist, a scientist, i worked hard. i wrote papers worthy of A+. i got F's for my family name. teachers even lied to get me in to more trouble. in front of me. and smirked at me. school was shitty.
my mother went in to menopause and refused to get out of bed when i was 11, for a year. my dad died then, my sister pumped out a baby and dumped it on my mother who wasn't moving from the bedroom. i had to stay home from school and take care of it. my sister would come around every few days to take money from my sleeping mother. offer to do her shopping, for 200% of the cost of goods.
oh, she also stole the bank book that my father had in my name. he was saving half of his money every week for me to take out when i was 18 and pay for an education. he told me that i was smarter than the rest, and going places. that was one of the few occasions i ever got to see him, since my parents divorced when i was 5, placed me in between them in the road and guilt tripped me about who to go with. my mother won by screaming at me that i didn't love her.
school went ever shittily, i ended up walking out at 15 after telling each teacher what i thought of them. no point in staying to get F's for hard work. raised my nephew alone. when he was 10 his mother who is now a drug riddled lesbian came back and decided that she and her pakistani obese lesbian girlfriend needed a kid. she turned all of my hard work in to nothing in a week. in days he was smoking and drinking. now he's been arrested multiple times and was jailed for 6 months.
me, i had a shitty job loading steel bars in to the back of trucks. it fucked up my back, and i started to get arthritic pains. my doctor is a useless immigrant that uses google to look up symptoms so i was never treated in any proper way. for the last 10 years i have been in pain, every single day, 24/7. on top of that for the last year i've had agonising irritable bowel pain and haven't been a day without vomiting or clutching my stomach on the bathroom floor.
my hair turned completely grey when i turned 16.
if i tell anyone my name, they say "oh, are you related to x and x" and give me a dirty look. the only people that accept me are scumbags whom i don't want to be near.
i spend my life locked in my room, in lots of physical pain, browsing 4chan and eating beans, which is all i can afford and all i can keep in my stomach.
And now I feel bad.







