CURRENT DAY: 49
Tracker Updated for Day Forty-Eight, April 29th
Warning- This thread is a serious one. Feel free to post trolling comments, but bare in mind I'll most likely ignore all of them.
I might move this thread to a different section eventually, but for now let's try it here since I like the spam forum.
Sappy picture ftw?
Many people that I know online are aware I have a serious gambling problem. I often say I'm done and that I'm going to stop, but I always end up going back to dicing. The longest I've made it was like 3 or 4 months, which was good progress, but I'm very disappointed that I couldn't keep it up.
While money issues aren't the biggest deal for me when it comes to gambling (although, that is also a big factor), the emotional stress I get after losing a large amount of money is really quite horrible. After losing a decent amount of money, I'll be upset with myself, I'll hate myself, I'll think of myself as stupid and idiotic and immature, ect.
I've been gambling since April 2011, and after nearly 3 years, I think it's about time for me to realize gambling may affect my life permanently if I don't stop soon. I've lost tens and tens of thousands of dollars gambling, and I've spent countless hours dicing/gambling and many of those hours were spent upset. Why should I do something that I know will make me upset and lose money? It doesn't make logical sense. However, it's hard to just stop out of the blue, and I'm sure many of you can relate. After all, I wouldn't have this problem if gambling weren't fun for me while I was winning. That happy feeling is so strong that it causes me to make such stupid decisions over and over again, so I know I will be fighting against quite the opponent to achieve my goal.
I am starting college this August, which means my entrance into "the rest of my life" is approaching quickly. Sure, I may be able to sustain a gambling lifestyle when I'm backed by my parents money, but once I'm on my own, how will I be able to support myself? I need to nip this addiction in the butt before it turns into a real life problem, which means I need to take action starting now. I'd like to thank Anthony for making me realize this sometime last week when he told me it'd be a good idea to stop because of how easily it'll translate to my real life. Lots of people have told me that in the past, but the way he said it on teamspeak that day has made me think about gambling in this light every single day since then. Thanks Anthony, it really means a lot
What is the purpose of this thread?
- Overall goal of stopping my gambling addiction
- Provide an area where I can track my progress of each day without gambling until August 31st, 2014, and possibly beyond
- Make an area where I can receive positive thoughts from others
- Have an area where I can have people occasionally check in on me to make sure I'm keeping to my word
- Possibly inspire others to try similar life changing goals
Each day, I will be updating this thread in both the OP and in a new post, confirming that I have not gambled in that day. That way, I am accountable for each and every day, which makes the gigantic goal of ending gambling permanently much more manageable by breaking it into a day by day goal.
The plan is to make it for 171 days without gambling, as that is the amount of days between today, March 13th, and August 31st.
How can you help me?
- Give me support of any kind. A private message on Skype, a post, a pm, ect. Anything will help
- Don't encourage me to gamble by asking me to do bets. This point is mostly for other dragon dyce hosts. I am often poked to call wagers- don't do that anymore.
- Offer me ideas on how to continue without gambling. Ie- ways to pass the time, what to do when I have the urge to gamble, ect
- KEEP TRACK OF ME---- Anyone who catches me being behind by a day will receive $10 from me via PP
- REPORT ME IF YOU CATCH ME GAMBLING- Anyone who catches me gambling and points it out to me and then forces me to stop will receive $50 PP from me
Daily Tracker-
Day One (March 13th)- Check
Day Two (March 14th)- Check
Day Three (March 15th)- Check
Day Four (March 16th)- Check
Day Five (March 17th)- Check
Day Six (March 18th)- Check
Day Seven (March 19th)- Check
Day Eight (March 20th)- Check
Day Nine (March 21st)- Check
Day Ten (March 22nd)- Check
Day Eleven (March 23rd)- Check
Day Twelve (March 24th)- Check
Day Thirteen (March 25th)- Check
Day Fourteen (March 26th)- Check
Day Fifteen (March 27th)- Check
Day Sixteen (March 28th)- Check
Day Seventeen (March 29th)- Check
Day Eighteen (March 30th)- Check
Day Nineteen (March 31st)- Check
Day Twenty (April 1st)- Check
Day Twenty-One (April 2nd)- Check
Day Twenty-Two (April 3rd)- Check
Day Twenty-Three (April 4th)- Check
Day Twenty-Four (April 5th)- Check
Day Twenty-Five (April 6th)- Check
Day Twenty-Six (April 7th)- Check
Day Twenty-Seven (April 8th)- Check
Day Twenty-Eight (April 9th)- Check
Day Twenty-Nine (April 10th)- Check
Day Thirty (April 11th)- Check
Day Thirty-One (April 12th)- Check
Day Thirty-Two (April 13th)- Check
Day Thirty-Three (April 14th)- Check
Day Thirty-Four (April 15th)- Check
Day Thirty-Five (April 16th)- Check
Day Thirty-Six (April 17th)- Check
Day Thirty-Seven (April 18th)- Check
Day Thirty-Eight (April 19th)- Check
Day Thirty-Nine (April 20th)- Check
Day Forty (April 21st)- Check
Day Forty-One (April 22nd)- Check
Day Forty-Two (April 23rd)- Failed
Day Forty-Three (April 24th)- Failed
Day Forty-Four (April 25th)- Check
Day Forty-Five (April 26th)- Check
Day Forty-Six (April 27th)- Check
Day Forty-Seven (April 28th)- Check
Day Forty-Eight (April 29th)- Check
Day Forty-Nine (April 30th)- In Progress
Notes-
- The tracker will always be updated the day after the current day. So, Day One will be updated on Day Two, and Day Two will be updated on Day Three
- I am unsure at this time whether or not I'll consider hosting at dragon dyce a form of gambling
- I may post ahead of time if I'll be unable to update the tracker for any number of days. If I do so, then the $10 reward for catching an unupdated log does not apply. If there is a legitimate reason for me being unable to access the internet unannounced for a day, then once again the $10 reward will not be in play.
- I have decided that it is okay for me to still flip gp as it's not gambling, but for the time being I will be stopping so as to avoid temptation
- If I am to close this thread early, I will be forced to pick 10 posters at random from this thread and give them $20 each
