Formal Apology And Explanation - Werner
I guess to some of you its a surprise to be hearing from me, and to some well maybe not so much. Over the past one and half months, I've had taken out some time to think stuff over, and spend holidays with family, friends and girlfriend. Its been the most peaceful time I've had in about 2 years without constantly worrying about E-drama and so on. ( Yes it interferes with my life). A good long break well spent.
Now, I don't really know what made me fake my death, I Guess it started off as a "Troll", from about a year ago. I saw the thread and Jokingly I posted a second one which is the "Bye :'(" one in spam forum. Realizing the emense pressure I was under this ended in a way out of the firing line. My personal and social life was diminished by Sythe, and it took up 95% of my time. I was turning into an addict like I used to be with RuneScape. As much as I dreaded lying to everyone who has befriended me for over the past 2 years, It was a necessarily step to get my life back on track and spend time with loved ones.
Constantly nagging in the back of my mind, is how I'm going to explain this, At first my thoughts were to just continue with the plans which were to end up dying from the mysterious cancer. After about a week or so, thinking about what I will do I made up my mind that I was to come clean with all the rubbish. Whether I will ever earn forgiveness I don't know, whether I will ever be welcome back is unclear to me. But the thing I want most is just to come back to the community that I've learned to love over the past 28 months. I don't know if I will retain my moderator position for doing such a stupid thing, but either way, I will continue to strive for a better community, a better place for all as I always have.
Breaking my arm while falling off a skateboard has kept be back another week from coming clean. I had to have surgery and screws. The whole process took a week.
And here's just a pic of what I got up too in the holidays.
For all those who I mislead and even said prayers for me, whether or not I had cancer their thoughts and prayers helped me to overcome dozens of personal obstacles and battle problems with my life.
Once again, Just finishing with another call for forgiveness.
“Do not brood over your past mistakes and failures as this will only fill your mind with grief, regret and depression. Do not repeat them in the future.â€
Swami Sivananda
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Werner.
I guess to some of you its a surprise to be hearing from me, and to some well maybe not so much. Over the past one and half months, I've had taken out some time to think stuff over, and spend holidays with family, friends and girlfriend. Its been the most peaceful time I've had in about 2 years without constantly worrying about E-drama and so on. ( Yes it interferes with my life). A good long break well spent.
Now, I don't really know what made me fake my death, I Guess it started off as a "Troll", from about a year ago. I saw the thread and Jokingly I posted a second one which is the "Bye :'(" one in spam forum. Realizing the emense pressure I was under this ended in a way out of the firing line. My personal and social life was diminished by Sythe, and it took up 95% of my time. I was turning into an addict like I used to be with RuneScape. As much as I dreaded lying to everyone who has befriended me for over the past 2 years, It was a necessarily step to get my life back on track and spend time with loved ones.
Constantly nagging in the back of my mind, is how I'm going to explain this, At first my thoughts were to just continue with the plans which were to end up dying from the mysterious cancer. After about a week or so, thinking about what I will do I made up my mind that I was to come clean with all the rubbish. Whether I will ever earn forgiveness I don't know, whether I will ever be welcome back is unclear to me. But the thing I want most is just to come back to the community that I've learned to love over the past 28 months. I don't know if I will retain my moderator position for doing such a stupid thing, but either way, I will continue to strive for a better community, a better place for all as I always have.
Breaking my arm while falling off a skateboard has kept be back another week from coming clean. I had to have surgery and screws. The whole process took a week.
And here's just a pic of what I got up too in the holidays.
For all those who I mislead and even said prayers for me, whether or not I had cancer their thoughts and prayers helped me to overcome dozens of personal obstacles and battle problems with my life.
Once again, Just finishing with another call for forgiveness.
“Do not brood over your past mistakes and failures as this will only fill your mind with grief, regret and depression. Do not repeat them in the future.â€
Swami Sivananda
-------
Werner.
