So, I kissed a guy... *sign*

Hey Sythe. I usually don't post on this forum but browse and listen.. But I want to get some things off my chest..

Last night for new years I started drinking doing pills, and smoking weed with my friends. Now I'm not the type of person to do drugs but I'm young and might as well try something once right? Anyways, I got drunk, high on E, and I was out of it.
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There was this guy that I met last night, let's call him "Ant". After about an hour of me taking pills, I started to feel weird. I started trusting everyone around me and feeling comfortable. I was talking to my friends about things I wouldn't normally think about.. Then about 30 mins later Ant took me to the side and we started talking, I can't remember what we talked about. Then a few mins later we started making out and we took it a bit farther. And to top it all off I found his number in my pocket.. Now I am not gay or anything, but when we were playing around I wanted to stop... but my body wouldn't let me... I didn't have any control..

Now I'm disgusted at myself for my actions... Was it the drugs or my mind?

Also a few mins later I went to jail in till my parents got me out... I'm underage and so high I could eat a star.

 

Drugs does crazy shit to you, you my sir have just experienced it. Dont do em at all, or atleast not with other people.

 

You're right, but I didn't know it would have this affect. Augh I'm embarrassed

 

You probably got confused, main side effect of ect is confusuon, plus u drunk some alchohol too

 

Just listen to Katie Perrys song -"I kissed a girl" Except replace "girl" with "guy".

It'll help the trauma by accepting you kissed the guy. Its easier to accept something you like than to deny something you don't like.

 

Well I wouldn't say alcohol had anything to do with kissing a guy...I drink heavily and on a reg and have never thought of kissing another guy.

 

Yea but he took E with it.

 

ecstasy makes you very happy and overly comfortable with people. everything, even touching stuff is so awesome. im sure if there was a girl there instead, it would have felt much better to you. but i think you just made a mistake, but couldnt see it, and just went along with the flow. if you, sober, dont like men, id say you are not gay or even bi. shit happens sometimes, but it could be something to look in to. maybe if you really think and meditate, u will find the real answer to your question.

 

Thanks everyone. And thanks Giddy, you're right.^_^

 

MDMA, pure love :3

 

I agree with you! When I was up I felt like I was on top of the world! No cares or worries! I was kind of freaked out when I came two this morning, that I actually enjoyed it. But now I'm not worried... Things happen and as long as it isn't permanent I'm cool with it now lol.

Augh my friends are texting me to hang out again.... idk if I can do it

 

Even if you are gay, please know there is nothing wrong with it. The fact that you take ecstasy makes it unlikely you are, but please don't worry, even if you are. Just move on.

 

Just carry on like nothing happened and everyone will forget

 

You mixed Ecstasy with Alcohol. It's mixing drugs, a suppressant with a depressant. It's a very bad idea and it can lead to unexpected consequences.
Also, are the pills you talked about the E, or something else? They may have been date-rape drugs, even if you thought they were E.

Bottom line is: you aren't gay, you probably aren't bi. Drugs do weird things to you.

 

I taken some pickiche, supermans, and toyota then downed it with a can and a half of four locos. After that, it was over. And you're right.. The pills could've been anything. I don't even know what it was cut with. >.<

Also... I'm a little worried about seeing Ant today... IDK what he's going to say or do... *sign*

hopefully everyone will forget last night.

 

i would definitely suggest avoiding drugs like E or alcohol if you want to remain in complete control of yourself...it was probably more of the drugs doing than your own

 

I had a friend tell me that it may be deeper. He told me that even if you're high you should know what you're doing.. Now I'm depressed lol

So I'm going to meet Ant today and see if it's still there. Then I'm going back home and shoot the sky, blow off some steam.

 

Why would you share this first off all?

I was a ad-vied Pot head, drinker party for many years and ive never kissed a guy.

 

I know it could've gotten worst.. and it almost did.. Good thing the pills were soft hitters. I wish I could stop but it makes my worries go away. I become free like a spirit.

 

What bad could happen from mdma?:huh: