I've never been so bored in my life. I don't know if you would call it depression - But whatever it is, it's killing me. I'll try and give you the condensed version.
This all seemed to begin after I was placed in an alternative education program at my school. We graduate early, and it's self-paced so I can't really complain.
I've got pretty much everything a 16 year old could ask for (except a car). I have an unnecessary, immense amount of friends, a girlfriend, more leisure items than I need, and I get out of school at 11:55 AM. Perhaps that's the source of the problem. Being on probation, I'm limited to what I can do out of school. Because the normal public school lets out at the same time I'm on lock-down (4:00 PM), that rules out spending time with friends (Unless they come over to my house, which isn't going to fly every day). Even with that, I usually let my girlfriend as oppose to friends come over on the days my mom allows it. I love her to death, but I haven't seen some of the guys in forever (no homo).
My brother is home a few days out of the week, but he's never really up for doing anything (He works graveyard so he tends to sleep during the day - Fair). My parents work until about 7:00 PM so it's pretty much just my brother and myself at the house all day.
I've also noticed that I've started doing something that I haven't really done before. Sometimes I'll just zone out and just ponder on everything. I really don't know why.
I can't even stand to be on the computer much longer than 30 minutes, even with being bored out of my mind. It just gets me down(er) for some reason. Hell, typing this is starting to get to me.
This is a brief run-down of a typical day for me;
7:00 AM - Get up and get ready for school.
7:55 AM-11:55 AM - School. Honestly, this is the best part of my day.
11:55 AM-12:30 PM - Go eat somewhere.
12:30 PM-12:00 AM (Usually when I go to sleep) - Sit around, watch maybe one show, text, nap, eat, and finally I go to sleep.
I've been around everywhere filling out applications but no one has returned a call yet. Oh! And keep in mind we're in a small town with absolutely no entertainment, no stores, just fields.
I can't blame anyone but myself for putting me in the 'legal' position I'm in, but this is killing me. I feel distant from everyone and everything. I've began smoking more and more after slightly cutting back, and my health is most likely spiraling downward. But honestly, it seems like it's the only thing I can use to calm my nerves.
Maybe this is normal. Going from someone who loved to party, always was out on the streets through the night, did shit without caring about the consequences - To this boring lifestyle I'm living.
I'm not trying to be "Emo" or get sympathy here - I just simply want suggestions for what to do to fill up my day with somewhat enjoyable things.
Also, sorry if I rambled. I literally typed everything that came to my mind.
This all seemed to begin after I was placed in an alternative education program at my school. We graduate early, and it's self-paced so I can't really complain.
I've got pretty much everything a 16 year old could ask for (except a car). I have an unnecessary, immense amount of friends, a girlfriend, more leisure items than I need, and I get out of school at 11:55 AM. Perhaps that's the source of the problem. Being on probation, I'm limited to what I can do out of school. Because the normal public school lets out at the same time I'm on lock-down (4:00 PM), that rules out spending time with friends (Unless they come over to my house, which isn't going to fly every day). Even with that, I usually let my girlfriend as oppose to friends come over on the days my mom allows it. I love her to death, but I haven't seen some of the guys in forever (no homo).
My brother is home a few days out of the week, but he's never really up for doing anything (He works graveyard so he tends to sleep during the day - Fair). My parents work until about 7:00 PM so it's pretty much just my brother and myself at the house all day.
I've also noticed that I've started doing something that I haven't really done before. Sometimes I'll just zone out and just ponder on everything. I really don't know why.
I can't even stand to be on the computer much longer than 30 minutes, even with being bored out of my mind. It just gets me down(er) for some reason. Hell, typing this is starting to get to me.
This is a brief run-down of a typical day for me;
7:00 AM - Get up and get ready for school.
7:55 AM-11:55 AM - School. Honestly, this is the best part of my day.
11:55 AM-12:30 PM - Go eat somewhere.
12:30 PM-12:00 AM (Usually when I go to sleep) - Sit around, watch maybe one show, text, nap, eat, and finally I go to sleep.
I've been around everywhere filling out applications but no one has returned a call yet. Oh! And keep in mind we're in a small town with absolutely no entertainment, no stores, just fields.
I can't blame anyone but myself for putting me in the 'legal' position I'm in, but this is killing me. I feel distant from everyone and everything. I've began smoking more and more after slightly cutting back, and my health is most likely spiraling downward. But honestly, it seems like it's the only thing I can use to calm my nerves.
Maybe this is normal. Going from someone who loved to party, always was out on the streets through the night, did shit without caring about the consequences - To this boring lifestyle I'm living.
I'm not trying to be "Emo" or get sympathy here - I just simply want suggestions for what to do to fill up my day with somewhat enjoyable things.
Also, sorry if I rambled. I literally typed everything that came to my mind.
