I need help... D':

For the past week... i have not gone a day without having an emotional breakdown

I have cried every night

During the day


I am moving on saturday.... to Nevada, which is over 2000 miles from where i currently live

I fear that i may be cast by my own ego, into a lengthy, or perhaps permanent state of mental depression

Here is my position-

I have since last summer developed a method of emotional "destruction" that involves me going through many emotional breakdowns, which will eventually lead to a final emotional breakdown, leaving me as a more emotionally stable person. I have made great progress in the destruction of my spirit, but i have overestimated my progress... a lot


Over the past couple weeks, i have become closer with my girlfriend, getting as close as i possibly can. To answer any questions, no- i have not had sex with her.
I am very much in love with her, and i have been spending as much time as i can with her, instead of trying to drift apart.

I have about 3 days left in new york. tomorrow, she is busy. that leaves me thursday and friday to be with her. perhaps for the last time- ever.

I have overestimated my ability to withstand this emotional breakdown, and i need suggestions from any of you

I do not want any flaming, and dissing, insulting, ect.
I want your help
I am right now in my greatest time of need, i am more desperate that i have been for anything before

I want to know- What should i do?
should i break up with her?
Should i stay in touch with her?
Should i forget about her?
????

I do not believe in long-distance relationships, it's a load of shit.
But i love her more than anything. this is the first meaningful relationship i have ever had in my life. i do not want to lose her.
I know this is rediculous, and it's been said before and never fulfilled, but-

I want to come back for her, where we can both then take our lives somewhere together.
I know she loves me, and i love her.
If there was such thing as a soul mate- This is it


Please help me
Right now, i need mostly comforting more than anything...

 

suicide ftw for you

 

stfu.
I didn't ask for any of that

if you're not gonna help, then gtfo

 

Stfu, that's not funny.

I would just end it, because even if you try a long distance relationship, it's going to end and it'll hurt even more. I say just move on, and eventually you will feel better about it all. It'll all be fine.

 

I have been thinking about that, but she is so different than any other girl i have ever met, or ever WILL meet

I can't just lose her like that. she is very special

 

Yeah not to bug in anymore, but that was not cool at all. Very discouraging and is sort of spamful to this topic.

Ultra, it's not the end of the world, and you're probably feeling empty right now. But of course, you can always contact her, and even convince your parents or someone to visit her during winter or summer? (Just a guess)
There's always MSN, phone calls (long-distance though), e-mails, and other ways to keep in touch with her. Although this is pretty complicated and isn't that convenient, you can just end it there, and stop the relationship.
And another pointer, never hurt yourself or commit suicide, I'm sure you're smart enough to know that.

It's not going to be so depressing IF you decide to end the relationship. You may think to yourself, that the time you spent with her has been wonderful, and you've never felt closer in your life, and this is it. But in life, nothing is perfect, and there's always going to be MORE chances in the future. I'm sure once you move, there will be other girls that appeal to you, and also meets your "needs."

It's pretty complicated to be in a relationship with someone somewhere else in the country, in my opinion. It's fine, and just move on.

Good luck.

 

Everyone has that feeling sometime. Maybe she's the one, maybe not... But just remember: you WILL find your true love someday. Maybe it will be her, maybe not... Just tell her how you feel. You never know what will happen.

EDIT: What spereff said

 

Spereff, Of course i am smart enough not to cut myself or kill meself ect.

But i cannot let go of her

The thing is, i am not into the traditional girl
I don't like girls with
Purses
Lipstick
Makeup
Perfume
Girly clothes
Frilly hair
Big sunglasses

Or anything like that

She doesn't do any of that
She's a lot like me, which is why i love her so much. she is pretty much everything i have always wanted to be... but too weak to become.


I don't just love her, i envy her


I can't lose her...




Edit: kingnick, she knows that i feel that way about her. she feels the same about me

There is nobody on the planet that could possibly be more perfect for me, and i for her

 

my oppinion: try forgeting her.

 

Um... Are you sure its even a girl your leaving?

But in my opinion, tell her its game over. You cant date while living 2000 miles apart. Still talk on phone, messenger, or whatever to stay in contact.

 

like i said, i'm not interested in the traditional girl

And like i said, i plan on coming back for her, and we will leave together to somewhere else

 

Well, whatever happens or whatever you do, I wish you luck, and hopefully you two can still be together somehow.

 

I guess it depends on your age in my opinon... But really, it's over for you. :\ I'm sorry.

 

kinhnick, thanks

Heidi- i am almost 16 (this thursday), and she turns 16 in february

I guess we're not that old, but i plan on coming back here after finishindmy 2nd year of college, or before that. no later

 

I know how you are feeling, but chances are it will pass with time. This happens to most guys who have girlfriends.

All I can say is try to keep in touch with her, see what happens, and who knows, you might even find someone better in Nevada.

Just don't let yourself get down over this. Remember: Life is nothing but what you make it to be.

 

Well, just follow what you think is right, and what your mind sets on. But I'm still telling you, it's going to be hard to communicate with each other, and gain the full potential of the relationship. She fits your exact needs, but somewhere out there, there's probably others that somewhat, do the same.

 

Man it will be alright. Break up but in a good way. You gotta tell her you like her but can't have the distance. If she cares she will understand. Eventually you two will be strong together or you will gradually stop talking with your life you have made without you two being together... Trust me i know how it is. You gotta be strong and just push your way through it. Eventually you will be better than ever

 

Don't feel bad man.
There are plenty of girls like that.
Even though they are not the most common thing you can find them.
Like I have one here
Also man It sucks that you're leaving NY.
NY rocks.

 

You live in long island?\
i was just up there this weekend

She has a lot of family up there

What area do you live in?

 

Coram