RIP n4n0/Ryan [1989-2017]

[Pain]

Trolling/Flaming on this thread will be reported and you will be punished.

N4n0 aka Ryan sadly passed away recently and this thread is to pay tribute to him and all the hard work and time he put into Sythe.org.
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Please feel free to share any stories or experiences you had with Ryan.

Words from the community:

Hey dudes, I've only really come back here to post a message after learning about the passing of Ryan from Facebook, and rather than adding text to a wall of messages I figured it would be more appropriate to come back here.

Ryan had my back, through my time moderating this forum, and afterwards once I no longer frequented here. When I was growing up my only friends were those among the Sythe community, and if I was facing difficulty there were people like Ryan who were there to game with, chat with, and support me. I admired his integrity, his fairness, trust, his ceaseless pursuit of justice, and his work ethic in a role that many Moderators and Admins know we do for the love, not the return.

Thank you for being a confidant, a leader, a workhorse, and a friend.
I'll miss you dearly.

I know a lot of you didn't really like him, but I always thought he was a good guy. I'll miss him personally. This sucks, first Lame, then n4n0. My thoughts are with his family.

Nuts man, never really talked to him except about some vape shit. RIP

R.I.P n4n0, my thoughts are with his wife, family and friends.

Shall miss seeing doggies on stream and his annoyingly ability to close suggestions thread and his despising of Scotty. We had some fun early discord days before it all got packed with retards. Was always eager to get people playing those servers back in cdt days. I hope you're at peace now.

*Sigh* these are some dark days.

Holy shit man. RIP to my fellow Ryan

I can't believe this at all. We never really spoke the last few years, but I still looked up to him no matter what with the decisions he made and so on. He was the reason I got mod on here in the first place too.

RIP Ryan.

This is serious. I know this is the spam forum but please try to show some respect for Ryan. He contributed a lot to the site and we're very sorry to hear of his passing.

I've got Ryan on Facebook, unfortunately it's real. I hope like Lame he rests easy.

Okay I 100% believe Matthew. Rest in peace, RyanG... we may have fallen off into different paths, but I had no hard feelings toward you whatsoever.

I hope Trin and the puppers will be okay - same with his family.

Damn this is so sad, my thoughts go to trin and his family. It sucks to hear this. He didn't seem to be displeased at all really. We used to talk a little bit a few years back and then lost touch over time. I wouldn't have thought this would have happened in a million years RIP.

hope his family finds peace someday. rip bruz

Holy shit I thought this was a troll thread until I saw Matthew post then I knew it was serious.

Rest in peace N4n0.

RIP to ryan even tho we werent the best of friends by no means

My prayers go out to his close friends and family, and to all who are affected by his death.

Wow, I can't believe this is real. Rest in Peace, Ryan. My condolences to Trin, and his family/friends.

In the words of Drake 'oh man, oh man, oh man, not again'

Another good member gone thoughts are once again with his family and friends

This is so sad to read. What happened to him if I may ask? My prayers will be with his family and friends. We never spoke much because he seemed like a very busy guy, especially gaming related..

Rest in peace, Ryan. You will truly be missed.

Rest in peace my brother

Rest in peace man, never got the chance to talk to you more than a bit here and there but you were a nice guy and you'll be missed.

Rest in peace Ryan. You will be missed. Rest well brother.

To Ryan,

This was tough news to hear this morning. Four years ago Ryan dropped my name to be a possible staff candidate and taught me the majority of what I know in regards to Sythe today. We shared laughs, hilarious skype calls, and some memories (good and bad) that I will never forget.

My prayers are with Trin and Ryan's father as well as with all of his friends. Not all of you liked him but Ryan was a good man who did what he could for the people he cared about.

To anyone battling their own demons, don't ever be afraid to speak out. Every problem has a solution no matter how painful and difficult it may seem.

Rest in paradise Rye. We both know who you're spending time with right now and I'm happy you're being given the time to catch up. Thank you for all you did for me as my friend, I'll miss you brother.

Despite his flaws he was a good staff member and a good friend and he will be dearly missed.


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RIP n4n0. You will be missed dearly by all of the sythe community.

Rest in peace N4no. Didn't know you as well as many others do, but you were a great guy.

You were a great guy and you will be missed. We didn't talk much on a personal level but we did talk about technical/security stuff quite a few times. You will remembered in a positive way. RIP

@n4n0 , you will be missed dearly by your friends and family.

I will no longer get to see the intro I made specifically for your streams.

You were a great staff member over the years, a great friend, and a great husband.I wish the best for your family , wife, and puppers.

R.I.P. @n4n0

We didnt care for one another, but you deserve respect. You dedicated your life to this website for many years. Even though I didnt like you no one can deny the positive effects you had. I hope you find peace.

RIP n4n0

It's sad to see someone who had put so much into the site leave. We didn't know each other on a personal level, but I occasionally tuned into your streams. My thoughts are with his wife and family.

Holy fuck.. You were a good friend while I was on staff. We didn't talk much as of late, but I never would have seen this coming.

Rest easy, Ryan.

RIP n4n0, you will be missed

Damn this is crazy to hear. RIP dude.

Yikes. After hearing this, my prayers go out to his family and friends. We've had our fair share of interactions -- the good and the bad. He's someone who has helped this community and its members grow and all his work will be forever appreciated. Ryan was a good guy, and may he rest in peace.

Sad to hear , he was a good guy. We used to talk quite a bit years ago and taught me a lot. Rest in peace Ryan/ n4n0

Sad to see you go Ryan, we had our differences but we definitely held a tremendous amount of respect for one another. I hope you've found peace and solitude.

Rest in piece man. Sending prayers to your family. you never know when someone will pass away so always be nice to that someone!

Never spoke to him but I caught a few of his streams, Seemed like a really genuine guy. Rest easy.

When I first joined we talked a bit and he taught me about chargebacks. RIP Ryan. This is a crazy week..

not gunna lie i didn't like n4n0 but i don't think anyone deserves to suffer like he must have x

rest in peace

Terribly sad to hear the news. I also feel pretty guilty. These are people I personally could've reached out to and maybe helped. Didn't know either of them beyond your average Sythe posting. But I hope they had peaceful passings.

If anyone is struggling, my skype is live:sythe.andy People care. I care about you. Talk to me or get help from someone else. There's no reversing these things...

I keep wishing Ryan had talked to me or anyone else before taking his life. A permanent solution to a temporary problem is never a good solution. He could have worked it out whatever it was.

Life is too precious to throw away. If you are struggling please reach out to those around you who will gladly help.

Me and Ryan used to talk a lot. He was a great guy that cared about his friends and the site. Havent talked much recently but I wish we had. Always willing to answer any questions I had and help me out, always could count on him. I've seen him do the same on Sythe too especially on tech section.

Rest easy Ryan.

Wow thought this was a joke at first. Didnt even bother to look as it was posted in Spam Forum.

Sad to see N4no go.

RIP Ryan. I'll never forget the conversations we used to have back in the Sythe IRC when I first joined Sythe. You were a great guy and had an undeniable impact here on Sythe. My condolences go out to your friends and family.

Holy shit. RIP Ryan.

I did the best I could, I didn't know n4n0 well on a personal level but I thought he deserved more than a SF thread.​

 

[Azie]

We were going to do this on behalf of staff but it's good to also have other members opinions. Thanks @Bus369

 

[video]

I got acquainted with n4n0 about 6 years ago when he middlemanned a very large trade for me ($6,000+ total value). Since that time, I've had the pleasure of working with him on the staff team here and while he contributed immensely to the staff team that's not what I'll be focusing on. What I would like to recognize is his character. n4n0 was dealing with some hardships but he didn't take advantage of his reputation here to steal from or harm others. Many lesser men in his position would have certainly done so but that just wasn't the kind of person that he was. He will be missed greatly

 

[Azie]

When I joined few years ago I was a nobody like majority of the newcomers. Ryan was always there helping me with minor queries despite it honestly being a waste of his time.
I remember watching his streams all the time and every time I would join he would always make time to talk with me. He didn't care who you were or where you were from, he was genuine and a very caring person.

Like Video mentioned above he has had great character and I could never imagine this happening by how things were once upon a time. I will really miss him. Rest well Ryan.

 

[Elite Dust]

Both of you left too soon. I wish that there were some way of us to have helped both n4no and Lame. Regardless of the fact that I was not close to either of you, I can speak on behalf of the community and Lame's/n4no's friends when I say that when a close friend leaves us, a piece of our hearts is forever missing. Some people come into our lives and leave footprints on our hearts and we are never ever the same when they are gone. The loss of a friend is the greatest of losses.


Both of you were iconic within the Sythe community, gone but never to be forgotten.

To anyone going through dark times or struggles.

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Your skin is not paper, don't cut it.
Your face isn't a mask, don't hide it.
Your size isn't a book, don't judge it.
Your life isn't a film, don't end it.

R.I.P,

n4n0 [1989-2017]
Lame [1994-2017]

Adieu.

 

I cant say I have had the pleasure of speaking to Ryan, but from what I have seen and heard he was an amazing guy (this thread is an example). It's a shame to see that he has gone like this and my apologies go out to his close family and friends.

 

[Dave]

Ryan I used to sit on Skype calls for hours playing games like Realm Of the Mad God and jokingly staking on Runescape while just laughing and having a great time. Seriously n4n0 was a character and he was such an easy person to joke around and laugh with.

Alteranz & video both nailed one thing about n4n0. He was really a genuine individual. There is a specific moment where I remember n4n0 telling me a story that really showed me who he was and the morals he stood by.

As our friendship developed, Ryan openly admitted to me about the pardon he had submitted years back and the scam and how it actually occurred. I know this was public knowledge, but what shocked me most was how he went about telling me the story. A lot of users here have been pardoned and returned as great people, a lot of those people are staff/were staff in the past. People make mistakes, people joke about those mistakes and they learn and move on from them. When n4n0 told me about the scam and what he did, he didn't show an ounce of humor or find it at all to be a joke. He still, 3 years later, felt horrible about what he did even after repaying the individual and giving him extra for his trouble. He couldn't even smile when he talked about the incident, he didn't care that he made the mistake and had grown from it. Ryan truly believed in honesty and integrity and no one can ever claim otherwise. He really was a man who believed in justice and fairness.

I spent a while yesterday looking through some FB photos and some chatlogs between us. Even the night it all happened things just seemed fine, he was with friends, laughing and drinking. I'm seriously going to miss him, the world really did lose a great soldier, son, husband, and friend.

 

I cried, I'll admit it. It saddens me greatly to read what I've read today. My thoughts are with Trin, Frank and the rest of his family. I'm so sorry for your loss.

Ryn0, you better be wearing a shoe on your head wherever you may be, rest in peace.

 

[gucci2525]

wow i seen this on the news didnt know it was him :"( rip n4no

 

[xMoneyMakerx]

I met N4n0 back in early 2011. I was on a mission to find a way to move bulk gold, prior to that it was just friends I was selling too, and I came across N4n0 and he put me onto Sythe.org. He put me in the right direction of Video at first. Quickly i realized that N4n0 was a good friend and asset to have, and he joined our clan temporarily and helped push the sales of gold to the skies, which in turned made a group of us realize the full potential of what we could become and how profitable the clan we had was.
I contribute a large portion of my success and others to N4n0, without him I don't think we would have made it to where we had gotten. He was the link in the chain that connected a lot of people.

I know many people on this site have different views of him as he had changed overtime, but that's not the person I knew or met in 2011.

 

Oh man... I literally got the goosebumps when I opened this thread to find out a good friend whose helped me out every since I've joined this community. Despite how busy he was, n4n0 always helped me out with whatever situation I was in and I'm forever thankful for that. My prayers go out to his family and loved ones.
RIP pal

 

[Sypherz]

Definitely had my differences with Ryan while I was on staff, but this hurts a lot to hear. Rest in peace my friend.

 

[jackthehackm8]

n4n0 may you rest in peace sir and may your sythe legacy go on as jon did.

your i heart n4n0 minirank will forever leave a mark in sythe now, and you'll be remembered in the hearts of veterans.

 

I didn't really know N4N0 at all really aside from messaging him on Skype when I first joined. It's evident that the vast majority of people did in fact like him. From what I've seen and from all the comments, I assume he was also a great asset to the site.

Rest in peace.

 

[Frary]

To be honest I almost feel rude commenting on the thread as I never knew N4n0 personally however I used to watch him stream when I started getting into csgo and finding out he died at such a young age has stunned me and I hope his mind is at rest now

 

[FireZ]

Mad respect for Ryan.

 

[kc]

I did not know the guy, but R.I.P <3

 

[Sun]

I never had a personal encounter with him as he was more of a legend when I was on Sythe in my earlier years. I remember seeing him and thinking, "damn, I definitely don't want to get in his way." Over time, I realised he wasn't as scary as he seemed. He was definitely a good guy who put up with a lot, and genuinely cared for the site & others. Unfortunately I never had the chance to be blessed to have known such a special guy on a personal level.

I just hope he's happy wherever he is. I wish for the easiest of days to come for all his friends & family who are hurting.

Remember: too late often comes too soon, so reach out to those who you think may be hurting even if you think it may be a misguided approach - better to be safe than sorry.

RIP Ryan

 

[Program]

Thank you for posting this here. I did not appreciate the insensitive and inappropriate behavior that was allowed in the SF.

Everything I knew of Ryan led me to believe he was a stand-up and nice guy. I can see those that actually knew him felt the same.

Hearing some of the stories of people here excessively trolling and/or humiliating him makes me really ashamed of those people and to be a part of a community that supports that behavior. I've said this here and there on this forum. You may think it's all fun and games and memes, but your actions do hurt people, whether they laugh it off or not. Some people are much more sensitive. I don't know if Sythe members had a role to play in his passing through that behavior, but again it deeply shames me to think there's a chance they did.

You all know where the line is. Don't fuck with people over that line. It's a fucking disgrace. To think some of you still dance on that line and even Ryans GRAVE, sickens me. Take his place and then see if you're in the mood to laugh/troll.

Once again, I hope however he passed, it was painless and peaceful. I'm sure there'll be many that miss him.

 

[All Day]

I watched your csgo streams from time to time. I never would've thought this would ever haplen RIP.