Zerkerfist
♥..My kingdom for a kiss upon her shoulder..♥
Your first experience with..I had my first toke of weed when I was 12 and at the local skatepark, and some of my friends who had started smoking asked me if I wanted to puff on a joint with them. I accepted, but didn't feel too much. I casually used marijuana until highschool, when I started drinking and getting into real trouble.
I had this psychedelic thing going on for a year or two, where I was VERY interested in the whole hippy culture of the 60's, all the music and experiences, the art, the acid and the mushrooms. I spent alot of time with my friends on weekends tripping on acid and shrooms, experimenting with girls, art, music and smoking weed and drinking. My intentions for drugs were always for "mind expanding" purposes, and I vowed I would never use drugs like ecstasy and cocaine etc. I was also very heavily into drinking and was starting to get into lots of trouble when alcohol was involved.
By the time I was halfway towards 16, I began to use hard drugs. My reasons for doing drugs had completely changed. I would freak out and go insane everytime I tried to drop acid or mushrooms as I had grown very depressed and the drugs always brought out my mental state to the surface. So I began using "party" drugs in a social atmosphere, so I could still have fun with all my friends. I started taking ecstasy and going to raves, before long I was snorting cocaine with my friends too. Over the years I encountered various substances and began taking pills and smoking crack and crystal meth reguarly, with prescribed opiates being my favourite drugs (mainly oxycodone). Before long, I came across heroin, and now I have been battling an intravenous heroin addiction for nearly 2 years.
So yes, in the OP's terms, I am a "druggie". But I am not ashamed of it. I am getting my life back together slowly, and with the help of counselling and support groups, I am trying to tackle my problem at the roots and figure out why I use drugs and alcohol to numb my feelings and deal with my problems. I also take methadone every single day in front of a pharmacist, because I am physically addicted to heroin, and I get very sick without opiates running through my veins at all times. I am only 20 years old.
I think kids will always experiment with drugs, but I urge you to be safe and responsible when using. I always thought I had control and would never become an addict, or experience the kind of horror stories that they teach you about in school. But here I am now, living in this hell every single day.
I had this psychedelic thing going on for a year or two, where I was VERY interested in the whole hippy culture of the 60's, all the music and experiences, the art, the acid and the mushrooms. I spent alot of time with my friends on weekends tripping on acid and shrooms, experimenting with girls, art, music and smoking weed and drinking. My intentions for drugs were always for "mind expanding" purposes, and I vowed I would never use drugs like ecstasy and cocaine etc. I was also very heavily into drinking and was starting to get into lots of trouble when alcohol was involved.
By the time I was halfway towards 16, I began to use hard drugs. My reasons for doing drugs had completely changed. I would freak out and go insane everytime I tried to drop acid or mushrooms as I had grown very depressed and the drugs always brought out my mental state to the surface. So I began using "party" drugs in a social atmosphere, so I could still have fun with all my friends. I started taking ecstasy and going to raves, before long I was snorting cocaine with my friends too. Over the years I encountered various substances and began taking pills and smoking crack and crystal meth reguarly, with prescribed opiates being my favourite drugs (mainly oxycodone). Before long, I came across heroin, and now I have been battling an intravenous heroin addiction for nearly 2 years.
So yes, in the OP's terms, I am a "druggie". But I am not ashamed of it. I am getting my life back together slowly, and with the help of counselling and support groups, I am trying to tackle my problem at the roots and figure out why I use drugs and alcohol to numb my feelings and deal with my problems. I also take methadone every single day in front of a pharmacist, because I am physically addicted to heroin, and I get very sick without opiates running through my veins at all times. I am only 20 years old.
I think kids will always experiment with drugs, but I urge you to be safe and responsible when using. I always thought I had control and would never become an addict, or experience the kind of horror stories that they teach you about in school. But here I am now, living in this hell every single day.
