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- Sythe Gold
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Ok sooo a little background on myself...(facts will be randomized sorta)
A few years ago my best friend (like a brother to me) died in a car wreck....
I started to smoke weed while dating this girl that was really fucking with my emotions...my friend got me to try a pill that he got and he thought it was the correct thing, i took it, and within a few mins realized that it wasn't what it should have been..and it put me in the WORST panic attack of my life...
That girl then dumped me and SERIOUS anxiety attacks started to happen shortly after that.....
I went to the doctor recently for a checkup and my blood pressure was like 167/96 or something it was a little high due to being in the doctors in general, but my stand alone pace for my heart is rather fast i'm inactive, i don't eat very healthy...but i'm trying to change that with 2013 being a new year.
During the day i'v been getting little tiny pains in my chest, just randomly, and i am sorta short of breath but i think that comes with being not so healthy.
---Random question jump-----
Have you ever thought something about yourself like...in my case for some reason with the pains i'v been getting in my chest...i feel like i have cancer or something (part of my anxiety i get thinking about something and it's set in my mind that i have it, it's odd...) so like now that my anxiety is causing me to think that i have cancer, it seems to me that i am seeing the word cancer, hearing about people heart problems and cancer shit, and it just makes me feel even more that i have cancer or something seriously wrong with me.
I seriously think that it's my anxiety fucking with my mind and causing pains or something...
I do have to admit i'm terrified of the doctors....i'm 270 lbs and 6'1 almost....still scared as fuck of hospitals doctors etc....so....what the fuck should i do. I'm tired of feeling like somethings wrong with me and that i'm going to die every day, i'm not sure what i have to do to get a grasp on my life and get me headed in the right direction to being healthy and stop all of these fucking problems...
any help or something would be very nice..
Thanks.
A few years ago my best friend (like a brother to me) died in a car wreck....
I started to smoke weed while dating this girl that was really fucking with my emotions...my friend got me to try a pill that he got and he thought it was the correct thing, i took it, and within a few mins realized that it wasn't what it should have been..and it put me in the WORST panic attack of my life...
That girl then dumped me and SERIOUS anxiety attacks started to happen shortly after that.....
I went to the doctor recently for a checkup and my blood pressure was like 167/96 or something it was a little high due to being in the doctors in general, but my stand alone pace for my heart is rather fast i'm inactive, i don't eat very healthy...but i'm trying to change that with 2013 being a new year.
During the day i'v been getting little tiny pains in my chest, just randomly, and i am sorta short of breath but i think that comes with being not so healthy.
---Random question jump-----
Have you ever thought something about yourself like...in my case for some reason with the pains i'v been getting in my chest...i feel like i have cancer or something (part of my anxiety i get thinking about something and it's set in my mind that i have it, it's odd...) so like now that my anxiety is causing me to think that i have cancer, it seems to me that i am seeing the word cancer, hearing about people heart problems and cancer shit, and it just makes me feel even more that i have cancer or something seriously wrong with me.
I seriously think that it's my anxiety fucking with my mind and causing pains or something...
I do have to admit i'm terrified of the doctors....i'm 270 lbs and 6'1 almost....still scared as fuck of hospitals doctors etc....so....what the fuck should i do. I'm tired of feeling like somethings wrong with me and that i'm going to die every day, i'm not sure what i have to do to get a grasp on my life and get me headed in the right direction to being healthy and stop all of these fucking problems...
any help or something would be very nice..
Thanks.




















