Struggling to keep chin up

God, it has been a bad week. Fell in love again for the only other time in my life since my ex-husband, with a guy I work with, who on a road trip together last week dropped his guard and revealed himself to be abusive and full of issues. Still love him though, so it's making the breakup and staying away process extremely difficult even though the decision is clear-cut.

Broke up with him on Wednesday and been kind of a mess ever since, but been making a serious effort to hang out with people, make new friends, keep busy, etc. Starting a mission to get back into serious shape, was planning to start with tomorrow's Bolder Boulder.

Until I realised I accidentally threw out my pack that I paid fifty bucks for, and thus can not get into the race.

It's just the last straw, I feel like I'm about to have a fricken meltdown right now. I don't want to push my friends away by complaining but I am dying for some support right now.