LongswordAndLongboardin
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This isn't too deep or anything, I just wanted to know your opinions about it.
The first time I smoked weed was with my friend, his brother, and his brother's friends. It was fun, we were in the top of his barn just playing card games, drinking beer (not getting drunk) and listening to N.W.A (rap). I still had some after that so I lit up in my bathroom the next day, and did it with friends for like 4 days after that.
After that, I smoked, I'd say, every two weeks, except I was an idiot about it and didn't really care who knew, so my sister, who goes to my school, found out. I live in an EXTREMELY religious family and she's also very religious, so she wanted me to stop right then, mostly because it was illegal, I wasn't getting as grades as well as I normally did, all that. She had asked me before if I did too, which I said I didn't, and she was angry that I lied to her. So I quit right there, and I haven't smoked since then.
Two weeks ago, my parents got a letter in the mail from the also very religious parents of this kid in Grade 6 I know. They told them I smoked weed (they knew because I posted an argument for Marijuana Legalization on Facebook on a group and I wasn't careful enough to check if it was private or anything, so he found out and told his parents), and they got super angry, my mom started crying because she found out I was "on drugs," my dad said he wanted to run my drug dealer over with a car (I just got weed from my friends, I don't have a drug dealer), they went on about how it was illegal, was ruining my reputation, was bad for my health (I cleared up a lot about that), etc. but, I'd been clean for a while! I told them that and they were happy about it and my mom gave me my cash back that she took because she thought I was buying "drugs" with it. Here's where I am now..
I want to smoke weed again. It's a social thing that I do with my friends, it's not like I'm addicted to a drug. It makes music sound way better, food taste way better, it makes everything way better (even though it did feel nice being clean for the first three weeks). I'm having thoughts about doing cocaine and heroin, even though I definitely never will, I am. My dad really pisses me off, it's like he always finds something to yell at me at, get angry at me for, something sarcastic, anything like that. Yesterday we were playing Yahtzee and I was drummin' the beat to a song I like with my fingers. Later I said we should stop taking the dice, putting them in a cup, shaking the cup and rolling the dice out of the cup and just roll it with out hands because the cup is "annoying." He gave me this stupid look and it a ridiculously sarcastic, bitchy tone he said, "Your tapping is annoying, haha!" And today, when I fake-yelled to get my dog off me, he freaked out at me, told me I stepped on her toes, told me she's just a puppy and I needed to be more careful with her. He shook by the scruff of her neck a week ago and she yelped louder than I've ever heard her since. Anyway I'm getting off topic, I'm always in a shitty mood, I never hang out with anyone, so here's my question;
TL;DR I want to start smoking weed again but I got caught by my sister and my parents
Should I
Start smoking again but don't do it as often until I'm comfortable with not being caught, and be VERY VERY careful until then and always VERY SECRETIVE(only do it on weekends/during school hours, not after, don't be high near my parents, etc.). <- Will make me happier.
Sub-option: do the above in a year, when my sister moves out.
Don't smoke again because I might get caught and sent to bootcamp (50% serious). <- Will stay pissed off all the time.
Sorry if this was a huge wall of text, needed to rant a bit. I'd like some mixed opinions in the comments and I'll try to update you guys if you have questions or anything.
Thanks,
Trev
The first time I smoked weed was with my friend, his brother, and his brother's friends. It was fun, we were in the top of his barn just playing card games, drinking beer (not getting drunk) and listening to N.W.A (rap). I still had some after that so I lit up in my bathroom the next day, and did it with friends for like 4 days after that.
After that, I smoked, I'd say, every two weeks, except I was an idiot about it and didn't really care who knew, so my sister, who goes to my school, found out. I live in an EXTREMELY religious family and she's also very religious, so she wanted me to stop right then, mostly because it was illegal, I wasn't getting as grades as well as I normally did, all that. She had asked me before if I did too, which I said I didn't, and she was angry that I lied to her. So I quit right there, and I haven't smoked since then.
Two weeks ago, my parents got a letter in the mail from the also very religious parents of this kid in Grade 6 I know. They told them I smoked weed (they knew because I posted an argument for Marijuana Legalization on Facebook on a group and I wasn't careful enough to check if it was private or anything, so he found out and told his parents), and they got super angry, my mom started crying because she found out I was "on drugs," my dad said he wanted to run my drug dealer over with a car (I just got weed from my friends, I don't have a drug dealer), they went on about how it was illegal, was ruining my reputation, was bad for my health (I cleared up a lot about that), etc. but, I'd been clean for a while! I told them that and they were happy about it and my mom gave me my cash back that she took because she thought I was buying "drugs" with it. Here's where I am now..
I want to smoke weed again. It's a social thing that I do with my friends, it's not like I'm addicted to a drug. It makes music sound way better, food taste way better, it makes everything way better (even though it did feel nice being clean for the first three weeks). I'm having thoughts about doing cocaine and heroin, even though I definitely never will, I am. My dad really pisses me off, it's like he always finds something to yell at me at, get angry at me for, something sarcastic, anything like that. Yesterday we were playing Yahtzee and I was drummin' the beat to a song I like with my fingers. Later I said we should stop taking the dice, putting them in a cup, shaking the cup and rolling the dice out of the cup and just roll it with out hands because the cup is "annoying." He gave me this stupid look and it a ridiculously sarcastic, bitchy tone he said, "Your tapping is annoying, haha!" And today, when I fake-yelled to get my dog off me, he freaked out at me, told me I stepped on her toes, told me she's just a puppy and I needed to be more careful with her. He shook by the scruff of her neck a week ago and she yelped louder than I've ever heard her since. Anyway I'm getting off topic, I'm always in a shitty mood, I never hang out with anyone, so here's my question;
TL;DR I want to start smoking weed again but I got caught by my sister and my parents
Should I
Start smoking again but don't do it as often until I'm comfortable with not being caught, and be VERY VERY careful until then and always VERY SECRETIVE(only do it on weekends/during school hours, not after, don't be high near my parents, etc.). <- Will make me happier.
Sub-option: do the above in a year, when my sister moves out.
Don't smoke again because I might get caught and sent to bootcamp (50% serious). <- Will stay pissed off all the time.
Sorry if this was a huge wall of text, needed to rant a bit. I'd like some mixed opinions in the comments and I'll try to update you guys if you have questions or anything.
Thanks,
Trev
