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Ixiled/xSensazn
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To be frank, I will not attempt to skew the truth or such, as I regard this as a true apology and not a chance to disprove my past actions.
I have not ever had malicious intent or hostility towards any members on the forum. I was more of a behind-the-scenes lurker rather than a true member of Sythe for many years and my recent return was my opportunity to contribute my thoughts and help others in the community.
In addition, I will regard any decision made respectfully as I did commit the offence of ban evasion. It is indeed true that I did not know I was banned on 'Ixiled' years ago. Now that I spent a few weeks thinking about why that account was banned, the only possible reasonable theory is that I was banned for having multiple accounts, which was an offence years ago.
Regretfully, I made multiple accounts about four to five years ago, not with any heinous motives, but to sort-of 'erase' my reputation/identity. By this, I am not talking about a reputation of scamming or such, but of idiocy on topics that I did not have much knowledge in.
I recall that I had posted one truly moronic comment when I remarked, "Leaving your computer on is destroying our environment through global warming," which led to being ridiculed by a staff member, who was either Shredderbeam or Atomic. Actions such as this, urged me to create new accounts, where I would feel less 'idiotic'. I know this sounds very aberrant, but I cannot explain this disorder more clearly.
Over the four to five years I've been on this site, I've seen many people change -- whether it was for the better or worse; however, I acknowledge that I have committed an offence that led to my permanent ban, but at the time, I did not know I had an account that was banned.
In addition, I do admit that I logged into an account I had, 'Amaruark' after I received the ban in order to contact 'Matthew905' who I had unfinished business with. I couldn't contact him on MSN, so I decided to log in and send private messages to him.
Ultimately, I do have genuine remorse for my actions and they will never be repeated again. Through this site, I have truly expanded my knowledge and outlook on the world, nurtured my maturation to my more intelligent but still puerile self.
Last but not least, I'd like to thank a few people for really enlightening me:
Sythe - I remember reading your argument about Communism and Socialism, I printed it the day I read it and showed my teachers, haha, back when I was twelve or something.
Shredderbeam - I know you got banned for being in league with Sigex, but I did learn a lot from your debates in SFA, I just want to acknowledge that.
Finn - I'd read your quasi-diaries about yourself and I truly believed we had a lot in common. I never approached you personally, but you seem like a great guy trapped in a life you want to change for the better like me. Hopefully, I get to move on to the East Coast and leave my past life behind.
I do not have any qualms about which administrator decides to read this appeal and evaluate my ban, but I do wish for a careful and thorough read.
Thank you,
Joshua/Ixiled/xSensazn
I have not ever had malicious intent or hostility towards any members on the forum. I was more of a behind-the-scenes lurker rather than a true member of Sythe for many years and my recent return was my opportunity to contribute my thoughts and help others in the community.
In addition, I will regard any decision made respectfully as I did commit the offence of ban evasion. It is indeed true that I did not know I was banned on 'Ixiled' years ago. Now that I spent a few weeks thinking about why that account was banned, the only possible reasonable theory is that I was banned for having multiple accounts, which was an offence years ago.
Regretfully, I made multiple accounts about four to five years ago, not with any heinous motives, but to sort-of 'erase' my reputation/identity. By this, I am not talking about a reputation of scamming or such, but of idiocy on topics that I did not have much knowledge in.
I recall that I had posted one truly moronic comment when I remarked, "Leaving your computer on is destroying our environment through global warming," which led to being ridiculed by a staff member, who was either Shredderbeam or Atomic. Actions such as this, urged me to create new accounts, where I would feel less 'idiotic'. I know this sounds very aberrant, but I cannot explain this disorder more clearly.
Over the four to five years I've been on this site, I've seen many people change -- whether it was for the better or worse; however, I acknowledge that I have committed an offence that led to my permanent ban, but at the time, I did not know I had an account that was banned.
In addition, I do admit that I logged into an account I had, 'Amaruark' after I received the ban in order to contact 'Matthew905' who I had unfinished business with. I couldn't contact him on MSN, so I decided to log in and send private messages to him.
Ultimately, I do have genuine remorse for my actions and they will never be repeated again. Through this site, I have truly expanded my knowledge and outlook on the world, nurtured my maturation to my more intelligent but still puerile self.
Last but not least, I'd like to thank a few people for really enlightening me:
Sythe - I remember reading your argument about Communism and Socialism, I printed it the day I read it and showed my teachers, haha, back when I was twelve or something.
Shredderbeam - I know you got banned for being in league with Sigex, but I did learn a lot from your debates in SFA, I just want to acknowledge that.
Finn - I'd read your quasi-diaries about yourself and I truly believed we had a lot in common. I never approached you personally, but you seem like a great guy trapped in a life you want to change for the better like me. Hopefully, I get to move on to the East Coast and leave my past life behind.
I do not have any qualms about which administrator decides to read this appeal and evaluate my ban, but I do wish for a careful and thorough read.
Thank you,
Joshua/Ixiled/xSensazn
