Prior information :
- I do not smoke, drink or club/fool around with girls (Never had a gf but I do have a wild-eye)
- Never went for any therapy or help before
Clean & clear, I need help with my gambling addiction. I've been an addict for nearly 5 years now, and suffice to say I'm not good at it nor am I bad at it. Over the course of that period I've lost very large sums of money. You name it, I've probably done it. Just-Dice, Poker, BlackJack, DragonDyce, RuneScape Flower Games, Slot machines & practically any games, I've been there & lost. I can have initial success. Then greed kicks in, and I keep playing. Eventually the house comes back & I begin to lose. I have this stupid mentality to think that I can regain my losses.
I've turned 2.4 BTC into 103.7 before, then lost it all. I've turned $1k into $7k via online casino's, then lost it all. I've turned 100m RS3 into 2b, then lost it all. And I keep repeating this process. I have hopes that if I've done it once, I can do it again. Losses keep mounting. I can't stop my greed once I'm in the heat of things. I can temporarily pause mid-way through a game, but I wouldn't last 30 minutes. Frankly, I've been called a smart idiotic gambler. Ironic, but very true. I play the numbers game, counting cards & all that, but I always lose in the end. Always.
I've lost about $65k irl and I'm only now 18 years old, and I've confessed to my parents. They said they want me to forget gambling and to take my time to repay them, but I've just recently lost another $15k for a total of $80k, and my gambling addiction doesn't stop yet. I've thought about going for help, therapy or something, anything to help, but that would mean confessing to losing $15k when I've promised to stop. I want to at least earn back that $ before I try anything further, but it seems the only to do that is to gamble. I dont want to lose more, but I can't stomach the thought of this further $15k loss.
I know professional help is out there, but I just need some thoughts & words on how to combat my addiction. I'm a pathetic low-life gambler through & through, and I need to combat this. I've thought about suicide to help stop this urge & itch but I can't bring myself any further than thoughts....
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