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I have no idea where to put this section, but I would assume it deals with Sythe and it's members which is why I posted here in the Support section. Anyways, here goes:
A couple of days ago, Nick apologized to me saying I was denied OMM again? I was completely shocked and I was definitely working through some mixed feelings these last 2 days, however I am posting now this in a small effort to hopefully seek light of the situation.
In reality, a little part of me was not expecting this decision. However, the other part knew Sythe staff had something on me that I could never put my finger on, so the denial came more of a casual acceptance rather than a surprise. The staff use this "no discussing about the secrets of staff lounge discussion" and I agree that many matters should not be exposed out into the community, however, when you are basically scrutinizing me (which is understandable as OMM is the highest rank for a normal member), I feel it is unjust to hide behind the barriers of staff lounge and give me a final decision without criticism about what to improve upon for the next application. Granted, the staff reserve the right to this power, however, when I get multiple denials, I find it unjust to hide behind previous said "staff walls". Some staff members have been very kind to me and given me a valid reason(s) and suggestion for improvements which I appreciate from the bottom of my heart so much. But with each denial, I fix the issues they tell me every time and the denial this time is no different. I seek the reason(s) what or why, rather than pointing fingers and blaming the staff for denying me. It has gotten to the point that Nick says I should no longer apply because all valid reasons that I was given have been fixed; but merely my past cannot be forgiven which according to Firez, "only time can heal" which brings me to the next point.
I had to clear the air for the Hack Forums which occurred in the past 1.5 years ago (as pardons can be granted 6 months after). I believe that is sufficient time, and if not, I plea the staff to give me a time frame that is required to see that what "questionable/malicious behavior" I had tried to do in the past is behind me and to show that I have moved on and matured. For starters, I have openly created a thread about my Hack Forums explaining my past for everyone on Sythe to visibly see and I understand the grant of my pardon does not excuse my behavior as Sin has said. However, I moved on with my life and willing to admit things that I have done wrong is sign of maturity which according to Corey is a requirement for an OMM. In the same thread of my Hack Forums thread, Sin she says that "she would never forevermore deny my application but that I must prove myself worthy of the trust that is required for the OMM rank." When I inquired her further, she simply said that I must do bigger trades and get to know the staff better. On top of this, in the same thread, both Finn and Firez (in a PM) agree that with my denials I have had "a calm and collective demeanor each time", which they both agree is a further sign of maturity which I agree as it's been very hard for me to not get another denial and lash out in any form or manner.
The main suggestion from all the staff that I inquired about being an OMM is to be "more trusted". I would assume that is the general consensus of the Sythe people itself plus the staff and I cannot really deal with that issue except through active trading, which I have been doing such through the RS Market throughout most of my Sythe career and I have had no accusations of scam or anything of such sort albeit this only shows very little. However, this is a sign that I am to be trusted through the community, not to mention, I have many recommendations from many of the previous and current staff members in my application and with each application, I always get a couple more notable members to vouch me. Granted, I realize this may mean very little and that, ultimately, the fact is, I have very few Sythe staff Global mods/Sythe administrator vouches (who ultimately are the people who vote on my application), but this is due to me never getting the opportunity to deal with those said staff in trades to prove/show my trust, therefore, many staff can and will not vouch me for nothing which is understandable as they have no idea of my personality. However, rectifying this situation is still unknown to me and how this can be done, I implore you to shed some light. As many of the staff are aware, I try to converse with many of the staff members through IRC, Facebook and etc in order talk to them more, which I believe they think/know and believe that I have an ulterior motive which is I cannot say is untrue, however this comes from me just at lost for direction in seek of guidance rather than being malicious. Getting true friends come naturally and I agree that I may have forced it, however that reason is not valid enough for the behavior to be excusable but something it is something I would like to address here in this letter. Moving on, in dealing with this "being more trusted", Nick has said that "You need to be more trusted and show that you can MM bigger trades". In my application this time, I sought only trades that were of IRL money for RSGP which according to Nick, "It's better to have GP for USD versus accounts. Account values are subjective." All of my trades this time were only of Money for RSGP; to boot, they were are 500M+ which according to Nick "500M+ is consider large enough to vanish these ghosts (ghosts of my past from HF)". This issue has lead me to believe why many of the Sythe Staff doubt me, they simply believe I was not trusted enough. In my application this time, I have shown clear indications that I can easily handle such big trades and whatever was an issue last time should not be the same case this time.
In conclusion, I thank any staff or any other members that has read this letter regardless whether they choose to post their thoughts or not. As said before, I find it upsetting that I was denied (as anyone would be) but not be given a valid reason this time and just asked, "give up hope". All I ask from the staff is that they either let me explain any behaviors that were questionable openly to the staff and all Sythe members which, hopefully is enough valid reason to put my application up for re-consideration/re-vote or enough reason to submit another application without the error of my ways in the past being a hindrance.
A couple of days ago, Nick apologized to me saying I was denied OMM again? I was completely shocked and I was definitely working through some mixed feelings these last 2 days, however I am posting now this in a small effort to hopefully seek light of the situation.
In reality, a little part of me was not expecting this decision. However, the other part knew Sythe staff had something on me that I could never put my finger on, so the denial came more of a casual acceptance rather than a surprise. The staff use this "no discussing about the secrets of staff lounge discussion" and I agree that many matters should not be exposed out into the community, however, when you are basically scrutinizing me (which is understandable as OMM is the highest rank for a normal member), I feel it is unjust to hide behind the barriers of staff lounge and give me a final decision without criticism about what to improve upon for the next application. Granted, the staff reserve the right to this power, however, when I get multiple denials, I find it unjust to hide behind previous said "staff walls". Some staff members have been very kind to me and given me a valid reason(s) and suggestion for improvements which I appreciate from the bottom of my heart so much. But with each denial, I fix the issues they tell me every time and the denial this time is no different. I seek the reason(s) what or why, rather than pointing fingers and blaming the staff for denying me. It has gotten to the point that Nick says I should no longer apply because all valid reasons that I was given have been fixed; but merely my past cannot be forgiven which according to Firez, "only time can heal" which brings me to the next point.
I had to clear the air for the Hack Forums which occurred in the past 1.5 years ago (as pardons can be granted 6 months after). I believe that is sufficient time, and if not, I plea the staff to give me a time frame that is required to see that what "questionable/malicious behavior" I had tried to do in the past is behind me and to show that I have moved on and matured. For starters, I have openly created a thread about my Hack Forums explaining my past for everyone on Sythe to visibly see and I understand the grant of my pardon does not excuse my behavior as Sin has said. However, I moved on with my life and willing to admit things that I have done wrong is sign of maturity which according to Corey is a requirement for an OMM. In the same thread of my Hack Forums thread, Sin she says that "she would never forevermore deny my application but that I must prove myself worthy of the trust that is required for the OMM rank." When I inquired her further, she simply said that I must do bigger trades and get to know the staff better. On top of this, in the same thread, both Finn and Firez (in a PM) agree that with my denials I have had "a calm and collective demeanor each time", which they both agree is a further sign of maturity which I agree as it's been very hard for me to not get another denial and lash out in any form or manner.
The main suggestion from all the staff that I inquired about being an OMM is to be "more trusted". I would assume that is the general consensus of the Sythe people itself plus the staff and I cannot really deal with that issue except through active trading, which I have been doing such through the RS Market throughout most of my Sythe career and I have had no accusations of scam or anything of such sort albeit this only shows very little. However, this is a sign that I am to be trusted through the community, not to mention, I have many recommendations from many of the previous and current staff members in my application and with each application, I always get a couple more notable members to vouch me. Granted, I realize this may mean very little and that, ultimately, the fact is, I have very few Sythe staff Global mods/Sythe administrator vouches (who ultimately are the people who vote on my application), but this is due to me never getting the opportunity to deal with those said staff in trades to prove/show my trust, therefore, many staff can and will not vouch me for nothing which is understandable as they have no idea of my personality. However, rectifying this situation is still unknown to me and how this can be done, I implore you to shed some light. As many of the staff are aware, I try to converse with many of the staff members through IRC, Facebook and etc in order talk to them more, which I believe they think/know and believe that I have an ulterior motive which is I cannot say is untrue, however this comes from me just at lost for direction in seek of guidance rather than being malicious. Getting true friends come naturally and I agree that I may have forced it, however that reason is not valid enough for the behavior to be excusable but something it is something I would like to address here in this letter. Moving on, in dealing with this "being more trusted", Nick has said that "You need to be more trusted and show that you can MM bigger trades". In my application this time, I sought only trades that were of IRL money for RSGP which according to Nick, "It's better to have GP for USD versus accounts. Account values are subjective." All of my trades this time were only of Money for RSGP; to boot, they were are 500M+ which according to Nick "500M+ is consider large enough to vanish these ghosts (ghosts of my past from HF)". This issue has lead me to believe why many of the Sythe Staff doubt me, they simply believe I was not trusted enough. In my application this time, I have shown clear indications that I can easily handle such big trades and whatever was an issue last time should not be the same case this time.
In conclusion, I thank any staff or any other members that has read this letter regardless whether they choose to post their thoughts or not. As said before, I find it upsetting that I was denied (as anyone would be) but not be given a valid reason this time and just asked, "give up hope". All I ask from the staff is that they either let me explain any behaviors that were questionable openly to the staff and all Sythe members which, hopefully is enough valid reason to put my application up for re-consideration/re-vote or enough reason to submit another application without the error of my ways in the past being a hindrance.










































