My 16th Birthday

Robot Jesus · Dec 13, 2011

So yesterday was my 16th birthday. To be honest, it started out crappy because of the fact I was sick and I really didn't want to go to school. So I toughed out the day and I get home. My mom goes and buys some pizza and cake and we celebrate. Half way through, my mom gets a call from my biological father. (He lives about 500 miles away from me.) My dad and my mom talk. My mom sounds really sad and tells us to go up into our rooms and don''t pick up the phone. Knowing me, I just kept my door opened and listened.

My dad was overdosing on sleeping pills. While on the phone, my mom kept telling my dad to stay awake. My grandma was calling the police and paramedics to get down there and get to him before he went unconscious.

Now I am a pretty tough guy. I don't cry over things that are not worth crying about. But, I go up to my phone and I hear my dad telling my mom this, "You take good care of my kids. It will all be over soon. I am sorry I have been a failure to them and you for all of the time I have known you guys."

It didn't all end bad. My dad refused to get into the ambulance. So I got on the phone and said this, "You know, you always told me that suicide was the p*ssy way out of things. Now you are just going to go against everything that you have told me since I was a little kid?" I didn't know what happened after that. Quite frankly, I was scared to death because he quit talking all together. But apparently he got onto the ambulance and they took him there in time.

Now this is where I start to get pissed off. He gets taken to the hospital. He gets his stomach pumped. THEY RELEASE HIM THAT NIGHT. Are you serious? I thought it was mandatory that people stay for 72hrs for psych evaluation. But apparently not. He gets released 3 damn hours after he attempts suicide.

So apparently you can talk about suicide, drink a lot and then attempt to overdose. And they will let you out that day. What a wonderful world we live in, huh.

If you read through this, I just wanted to thank you because I really had to get this off my chest. I got no sleep last night. And I have been the most pissed off person all day.

rstrader1471 · Dec 13, 2011

Quite a sad story to be honest. I do feel the same way, suicide isn't a way to die. I think that you should take something from this, the fact your dad didn't die.

I agree the hospital was stupid to let him go so quickly seeing as though he is unstable and might attempt it again...

Just keep in your mind your dad didn't die. IMO that's all that matters atm.

If you ever need someone to talk to....I'm here for you mate.

Zerkerfist · Dec 13, 2011

Yeah that was a sad read.. I feel sorry for you man, particularly because you had to go through such a horrible thing on your own Birthday.

Like rstrader1471 said though, there was a happy ending to this. You got your Dad back because he got treated before anything serious was able to happen. So for that you should feel grateful.

The hospital is out of their minds to let him out after a few hours though.. I know people that have attempted suicide and they get stuck in a psych ward for atleast 72 hours, often much longer than that until they are determined to be stable enough to release. Sounds harsh, but it just keeps them from hurting themselves.

If I were you, I would consider calling your Dad up right now as he is probably in a very fragile state of mind. Just talk to him, tell him you love him and you don't want to have to grow up living life without a father, even if he lives so far away. Tell him to be strong and to think of you and your family every time he is feeling suicidal. Hopefully he will take that all to heart right now in his period of weakness, and you can help save his life.

Good luck man, I hope things turn out much better for you and your family.

Robot Jesus · Dec 13, 2011

Yeah, you don't even know how grateful I am that he is still alive. But at the same time, I feel so angry at him for doing this. Suicide is so selfish.

rstrader1471 · Dec 13, 2011

I also believe suicide is selfish, It's hurting your family, killing them inside if you will.

Your dad did the wrong thing, at least he's a live and I hope he has learnt from the experience.

Robot Jesus · Dec 13, 2011

He called me about 15min ago and we talked. I told him it was messed up what he did. But I told him I love him. He apologized to me. It was hard to be frustrated because he was crying and when someone close to you is crying, its not hard to stay strong.

Shoop · Dec 13, 2011

Robot Jesus said:
He called me about 15min ago and we talked. I told him it was messed up what he did. But I told him I love him. He apologized to me. It was hard to be frustrated because he was crying and when someone close to you is crying, its not hard to stay strong.

Staying strong is bullshit in those situations, I'm glad your father is still with you

He won't do it again after speaking to you.

Robot Jesus · Dec 13, 2011

Its useless to try and stay strong tbh.

Zerkerfist · Dec 13, 2011

Personally, I am very sympathetic of people who want to commit suicide.

I know alot of people view suicide as such a selfish act, but try and put yourself into the head of the person who is feeling suicidal. You have to feel so fucking hopeless, lost, depressed and like dying is really the better option vs. facing the rest of your life. Yeah its selfish in some ways because you leave so many people behind, but its also selfish for people to stay angry with you forever, and not accept the fact you were in so much pain or feeling so godamn low that killing yourself was the only way out you could possibly contemplate.

I don't mean to stir up a big argument here or insult anybody (especially you, Robot Jesus), but I have had a close cousin of mine commit suicide, 2 kids who I went to school with killed themselves before I graduated highschool, and my ex girlfriend suffered from PTSD because when she moved out here from Edmonton, she was still dealing with the suicide of her best friend's dad, who was like a second father to her. So I know all about suicide and how much it affects you, and everybody around you, when somebody who is close to you does it.

I'm just glad that your Dad made it, and that you have had a chance to talk to him. I'm sure if your Dad just gets himself some psychiatric help and keeps his mind on his kids (you), then he will be able to come out of this a stronger person, and will probably be glad that he never went through with his plans to kill himself.

Sometimes the person who is feeling so lost and in the dark, just needs people who love them to shine the light back into their lives. I hope you and your family can be that shining light for your father. Things will get better, they almost always do.

N01s PeRfecT · Dec 14, 2011

Hang in there bud.

Your father loves you, and you're becomming a young man. Focus on being the best that you can be. Try not to let the uncontrollable bring you down.

Happy belated birthday!

Robot Jesus · Dec 14, 2011

Thanks, I talked to him again today. And slowly we are beginning to kinda talk and I am getting to ask him questions about why he did that.

I also talked to my school councilor.

uselesspoop · Dec 17, 2011

i cry for you man, just reading this saddens me so much.

Boy, your 16 and i'm 16 too. And you have to face this kind of crap, while i comfortably live my life.

But you got to be strong okay, and keep your chin up and tight. This incident is going to affect you, but you have to remember to always look at things positively alright. And remember, smile.