i guess we have been in the same shit toxic relationship , and depression , i live in germany and i got kicked from uni because of the shit i have been through and because i was weak , but to be honest i loved what i did in uni , best advice in my opinion at least that is what i am doing untill i start uni again next semeser , i am have part time job 8h 3days a week, doing some osrs work on sythe, preparing math,java programming and other courses for next semester, pick your self up back together i wouldn't jump right away in another relationship i am just focusing on self development and trying to organize my life,time table,and setting daily goals,weakly goals,monthly goals, i take a piece of paper and write down everything i need to do the next day and for the week, and you say you are good graphic designer if i were you i would keep improving my skills, and look for a part time job, also best advice start hitting the gym to get out of depression it really helps a lot , best of luck !!