Its getting out of hand.

Most of you know me and will probably be able to pin point who I am based simply off my story but please don't post it publicly.

Okay so start of with an introduction. I go to school like every student but pride myself on perfection and that is where the problems begin. If I don't do well I'm down for the rest of the day. Not only am I disappointed my anxiety goes off the charts. Today I didn't excel at my physics midterm (mostly the profs fault but still). I've been unhappy all day and now I'm starting to lose my mind. I begin to think of the worst that my girlfriends lack of texting during studying means she's losing interest in me which I've almost wanted to ask her if she is but I believe it's just my anxiety causing me to freak out. Thoughts? Should I ask her or not? Also anyway to control this anxiety?

Sorry for the jumbled paragraph/if it doesn't make sense but I'm literally barely breathing while writing because I'm in the middle of anxiety attacks.
Also my family has a history of very bad anxiety and mental health, with my uncle, my dad, my grandma and my sister all suffering from anxiety or worse.

 

Explain to your girlfriend that you have trouble with anxiety sometimes, and that it would do you a lot of good to just hear her confirm that she cares about you. Tell her you understand that you might be acting irrationally, but let her know that by doing this you are trying to be as rational as possible. It's easy to think that your loved ones will not be willing to accept you for who you are, and that they will push you away because of things like this. But if she cares about you, she will understand.

And well you're at it, make sure you remind her how much you care about her too. Being open and honest with your feelings is an important part of any good relationship.

 

A few things:

1. Anxiety is normal, and it's fine to feel down in the dumps every now and again, however if this is a continuing thing ( as far as anxiety goes ) then it might be worth seeing a doctor about it. There's simple medication for anxeity and there's no harm in giving it a shot, my ex-gf's mother used to take anxiety pills, as did she, and they helped her.

On another note, it's absolutely fine to be pissed about your exam scores, that doesn't make you weird or make you feel like you're unnecessarily freaking out. People pride themselves on their schoolwork, I myself included, and I get pissed off when I make mistakes on exams especially if I knew I could have done better. That's a normal thing to feel, especially for students, so don't beat yourself up.

Lastly, be honest with your girlfriend. That's really all the advice I have for you, if you're worried about your anxiety and you're worried about her feelings for you, you ask her straight up/say it to her. Your relationship will not work if you aren't open with one-another, and if you're not comfortable being open with one-another then maybe it's not right for you. My best advice is text her, ask her to call, or something along those lines. When I'm having a bad day and my GF doesn't text me I get pissed off really quickly, and I shut down and shy away from her and I get mad for no reason, we're guys, we're fucked in the head, it's what we do. But keep in mind,, she's human, so she knows both the feelings of anxiety and fear of neglect, so talk to her about it, don't be afraid to do so.

I love you

 

Just to reiterate our sexts texts: what will be will be and worrying will only make the inevitable worse for you; and it sounds like your girlfriend was totally understanding so chill out dood <3

 

Calm down and don't think much. Ask her if theres any problem, don't just thinking right away, she might have her own issues and don't have time texting, anyways gl bro

 

Just talk to her she's your girlfriend for a reason