I feel useless and know that I only get jobs that no one else wants to do, get coffee, load boats, submit articles, and go do the mail. I’m only here because of my dad, he never talks to me.. only when he wants a coffee, he tries to understand me I think, but not as much as he does with his work. I’m highly stressed at the moment, yet he doesn’t even take that into account, the doctor told me if I didn’t get my blood pressure down I would most likely have a heart attack and there is a slim chance of pulling through it without having some mental problem.
He broke my computer around, its been more then 2 months now. I bought that computer with money that I had worked and saved for, yet he doesn’t even care, it use to be what calmed me down a lot, he told me he would replace it, yet 2 months has gone by and all that its come close to is him giving me a broken computer that blow the lights in my house and him telling me he’s cleaning out his old laptop.
The only time he talks to me is when he wants a coffee or wants lunch. Yesterday I got caught on a forum that I was on trying to sell some stuff to buy a computer myself (sythe.org). He brought me into his office and told me if it happens again I will be fired, I accepted that but today he called me into his office to tell my granddad (a manager here) that if I get caught of a personal website I was to be fired on the spot, I told him that was fine and he yells and me telling me it’s not fine. Yeah he’s running a business, but I clearly come after it. I earn $400 a week for what I do, it’s alright but I’m supporting my girlfriend as well, I pay for two people with $400 a week. I can’t claim for any center link because my dad earns too much.
It’s not easy but I don’t complain to anyone about it. What’s the point? My mother was a drug dealer when I was young and got arrested for stealing credit cards or something. I always told myself that she was dead because she only ever used me and my brother to get money. I wanted her to be dead, and that’s what I told people, it was much nicer then “she went to jail and is a drug dealer.” At the start of the year she got in contact with me, at this time I had just got fired from my other job for stealing from them because I wasn’t eating because they cut my hours down so much. She asked to catch up and I thought why not, people change.
I moved in with her for about a week or two, till I get a call from my dad asking if I have been in contact with my mother, turns out the day we meet up she claimed for child support. She was trying to get me to go back to school so that this would go through and she could get a lot of money off my dad (since he earns a lot). I left school half way through grade 11, it’s not that I hated it or another, I loved school, school loved me. I didn’t have any problems with grades, all the kids liked me, so much that I couldn’t be friends with most of the girls that showed any interest in me because they get too attached and my girlfriend gets pissed. I left because I needed to get out of the house.
I was living with my grandparents and had been since I was about 2. We were getting along, at all. Fighting every day, I hated going home, many times I had just missed my bus so I could walk and tell them I had missed it because it was early. I don’t even know why I was fighting with them so much, they have been basically my parents since I was little and have done a wonderful job of bring me up but we both seemed to find little things to blow up into big things. The only person I have really looked up to was my uncle, Dane. He died almost a year ago in a bomb blast in afghan. He was in the army, something I always wanted to do but my girlfriend has always not wanted to, worried that she would lose me. I always wanted to follow in his footsteps, he was a true hero to me.
At the moment I’m living with one of my best mates and this other dude (with my girlfriend). It’s a bit weird because we were all in this music group, which started about 2 years and was going strong, lately it’s just my best mate and this other dude selling drugs, and he is using the group to control is (we both just left the group about a week ago). I’m not happy there mainly because I get no respect from this guy, he’s a good friend but he puts himself above everyone and then gets pissed if someone ever talks down to him. He fights with his girlfriend none stop, and these are not normal fights, they scream and throw things, and since this is right in front of us sometimes we can’t help to get in there and tell one of them to just fuck off, then the fight they just had is blamed on you. Its fucking stupid, he is even trying to convince me and the other dude to pay $8 less a month to do his dishes..
Back to my job though, when I first signed up I was told that I would be getting into some work that involved something that was going to lead somewhere in life, something I could use to get another job, since then the person that was going to teach me all of this was fired, because, we there really is no good reason, just that my dad was a dick. I am just not happy and seem to be taking it out on anyone near me (even sythe members) I know what to do but there is a few problems..
1: quit my job. Problem with this is my dad and granddad expect me to stay until the end of the company.
2: move out. I’m not just going to leave them to pay for the place, atm I pay for half of the rent (me and my girlfriend) and I know they cant cover it.
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He broke my computer around, its been more then 2 months now. I bought that computer with money that I had worked and saved for, yet he doesn’t even care, it use to be what calmed me down a lot, he told me he would replace it, yet 2 months has gone by and all that its come close to is him giving me a broken computer that blow the lights in my house and him telling me he’s cleaning out his old laptop.
The only time he talks to me is when he wants a coffee or wants lunch. Yesterday I got caught on a forum that I was on trying to sell some stuff to buy a computer myself (sythe.org). He brought me into his office and told me if it happens again I will be fired, I accepted that but today he called me into his office to tell my granddad (a manager here) that if I get caught of a personal website I was to be fired on the spot, I told him that was fine and he yells and me telling me it’s not fine. Yeah he’s running a business, but I clearly come after it. I earn $400 a week for what I do, it’s alright but I’m supporting my girlfriend as well, I pay for two people with $400 a week. I can’t claim for any center link because my dad earns too much.
It’s not easy but I don’t complain to anyone about it. What’s the point? My mother was a drug dealer when I was young and got arrested for stealing credit cards or something. I always told myself that she was dead because she only ever used me and my brother to get money. I wanted her to be dead, and that’s what I told people, it was much nicer then “she went to jail and is a drug dealer.” At the start of the year she got in contact with me, at this time I had just got fired from my other job for stealing from them because I wasn’t eating because they cut my hours down so much. She asked to catch up and I thought why not, people change.
I moved in with her for about a week or two, till I get a call from my dad asking if I have been in contact with my mother, turns out the day we meet up she claimed for child support. She was trying to get me to go back to school so that this would go through and she could get a lot of money off my dad (since he earns a lot). I left school half way through grade 11, it’s not that I hated it or another, I loved school, school loved me. I didn’t have any problems with grades, all the kids liked me, so much that I couldn’t be friends with most of the girls that showed any interest in me because they get too attached and my girlfriend gets pissed. I left because I needed to get out of the house.
I was living with my grandparents and had been since I was about 2. We were getting along, at all. Fighting every day, I hated going home, many times I had just missed my bus so I could walk and tell them I had missed it because it was early. I don’t even know why I was fighting with them so much, they have been basically my parents since I was little and have done a wonderful job of bring me up but we both seemed to find little things to blow up into big things. The only person I have really looked up to was my uncle, Dane. He died almost a year ago in a bomb blast in afghan. He was in the army, something I always wanted to do but my girlfriend has always not wanted to, worried that she would lose me. I always wanted to follow in his footsteps, he was a true hero to me.
At the moment I’m living with one of my best mates and this other dude (with my girlfriend). It’s a bit weird because we were all in this music group, which started about 2 years and was going strong, lately it’s just my best mate and this other dude selling drugs, and he is using the group to control is (we both just left the group about a week ago). I’m not happy there mainly because I get no respect from this guy, he’s a good friend but he puts himself above everyone and then gets pissed if someone ever talks down to him. He fights with his girlfriend none stop, and these are not normal fights, they scream and throw things, and since this is right in front of us sometimes we can’t help to get in there and tell one of them to just fuck off, then the fight they just had is blamed on you. Its fucking stupid, he is even trying to convince me and the other dude to pay $8 less a month to do his dishes..
Back to my job though, when I first signed up I was told that I would be getting into some work that involved something that was going to lead somewhere in life, something I could use to get another job, since then the person that was going to teach me all of this was fired, because, we there really is no good reason, just that my dad was a dick. I am just not happy and seem to be taking it out on anyone near me (even sythe members) I know what to do but there is a few problems..
1: quit my job. Problem with this is my dad and granddad expect me to stay until the end of the company.
2: move out. I’m not just going to leave them to pay for the place, atm I pay for half of the rent (me and my girlfriend) and I know they cant cover it.
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