I remember in 2009, I could play MW2 and have so much fun it was so addicting. Then I got bored at level 70, and mw2 just depressed me. At this point I was like 13, and I was depressed cause of bullying earlier but I could still enjoy things.
Now in 2010, I can't enjoy nothing.. im 15 and in 3 months ill be 16. It's like I haven't recieved pleasure from anything but masturbation just tired of this shit, I don't really have friends now because I have to make up my credits so I can't go to school .. so i dont go out or anything. i dont have a cell phone so i cant be in contact :\
I wanna start smoking weed to cure this bullshit, I used to smoke last year when I was 14 for like 7 months then I got caught lol
I'm always depressed and angry im sick and tired of it. My big brother just puts me down, and my mom doesn't really help at all she never goes anywhere fun literally.. she wont buy me anything fun either so thats out of the question. Oh and, I cant enjoy music.. i dont know why but i used to be able to -.- whats wrong with me? this sucks man.. this isnt life this is bullshit
edit; oh and, don't suggest a girlfriend.. I'm not good at that stuff :S never had one, never been in love. I have no idea what love feels like since no one gives it to me so I don't know..
im also insecure as hell, like the way i walk and everything.. the way i laugh i dunno but its like i pay too much attention to what i do and it makes it all worse. i need some serious therapy or something :\
Now in 2010, I can't enjoy nothing.. im 15 and in 3 months ill be 16. It's like I haven't recieved pleasure from anything but masturbation just tired of this shit, I don't really have friends now because I have to make up my credits so I can't go to school .. so i dont go out or anything. i dont have a cell phone so i cant be in contact :\
I wanna start smoking weed to cure this bullshit, I used to smoke last year when I was 14 for like 7 months then I got caught lol
I'm always depressed and angry im sick and tired of it. My big brother just puts me down, and my mom doesn't really help at all she never goes anywhere fun literally.. she wont buy me anything fun either so thats out of the question. Oh and, I cant enjoy music.. i dont know why but i used to be able to -.- whats wrong with me? this sucks man.. this isnt life this is bullshit
edit; oh and, don't suggest a girlfriend.. I'm not good at that stuff :S never had one, never been in love. I have no idea what love feels like since no one gives it to me so I don't know..
im also insecure as hell, like the way i walk and everything.. the way i laugh i dunno but its like i pay too much attention to what i do and it makes it all worse. i need some serious therapy or something :\







