You have good intentions and a good soul
@Andy, perhaps we are of different mindsets; but I just want to leave you with a bit of advice which most likely will not mean much to you, but regardless:
It's not about being right or wrong, but perception;
It's not about truth or false, but circumstances;
It's not about pass or fail, but luck;
It's not yes or no, but subjective;
Its all grey.
You cannot classify it in one category, it's just somewhere in between there, hanging and waving from one side to the other, it's more like a swing, only when it's being pushed and is swaying two and fro is when it's purpose is being met, else it can be replaced by a chair too;
Similarly it's fine if we are in between, if no one can understand what you are doing, or if you are just average, and not a winner nor a loser, if you are moving on but clueless about the path, but what matters the most is keep swaying, keep voicing, be vocal, keep thriving hard, don't give up.
And sometimes the wind makes wonders too, and the swing is pushed on its own, so may be just may be someday the ones they call 'meant to be' may be the wind you need in your life, and push you just the way you are, and you needn't explain, or be vocal and it shall all seem perfect, be it your best friends, parents or any one...It may all just fall in place or should I say sway up high

…btw may be, just may be!
Keep swaying, don't settle at one side, be it black or white, balance it with shades of grey
