k right now im in a really confusing and frustrating time in my life.. i only had 1 girlfriend my whole life and it sorta stresses me out when i think about it but usually it doesn't bug me that much but when i think about it, it makes my self confidence go down the drain.
whats really bothering me is that im a 18 year old (grade 13) about to drop out of highschool without a diploma and with no real job experience. ever since i started going to high school i had a hard time. Barely any friends and it didn't help that im a really shy guy... most of my high school life i was a loner and played rs as soon as i got home till i go to sleep. Playing runescape just led to me procrastinating alot and that being said putting me in the position that im in now. So this year i thought i would try get high school out of the way and it started with me telling myself il do whatever it takes for the next 2 semesters to finish this but i failed. I got a letter last week for my attendence and i got a meeting tomorrow with the principle to discuss whether or not im staying the semester.
As of now i barely play runescape at all. I just started playing again today for maybe 1-2 hours (most i have played in months) so i dont think the computer is the problem anymore.. i just sit around the house now for most of the day and watch tv/ play game and basically just slack off. On the weekends i go out with friends sometimes and go to parties but thats just on the weekends i dont really hang with them during the weekdays.
anyways idk what to do now. Im at the point in my life where i gotta do something and i know that but what? i honestly don't think i can finish school because my work ethics are horrible and procrastinating gets the best of me everytime. So if not school should i just get a dead end job? i know not having a high school diploma is gonna fuck up my future and that's what im mainly stressing about.
anyways theirs my vent and thanks for those that read
