I'll try to make this as short as possible.
I am (was) in my second year of police college, a part of me says I will not make it because of my health. Was diagnosed with Crohns 12 years ago. In November I said enough.. I was tired of killing myself every time I ate because I hurt so bad even drinking a glass of water. Doctor scheduled surgery for Dec 10. Was not afraid at all, been suffering for over 12 years. That day they removed 15cm of Intestine and 20cm of colon. I woke up with my hand on a controller to pump pain meds when ever I wanted it (was nice lol). I was so well the second day, I was told I could go home on the 13th.
I tried to reach for my laptop on the second day and felt a pop in my abdomen. Didn't think anything of it but that sound was my intestine ripping apart because the surgeon said that he didn't know how sick my guts were. I didn't think anything of it and my nurses said I needed to walk because it was gas pain. It got worse and worse and the third day I couldn't move an inch of my body without me bursting into tears. Went for a CT scan and within 5 minutes I was rushed to surgery because I was going septic. Almost died on the operating table.
I woke up with a huge open wound, like a fish. They couldn't close me up because fear of infection. My wound is still 1 inch wide. I also woke up with an ileostomy. (Piece of intestine hanging out of my belly and a bag attached to it to collect my waste.)
I am doing a little bit better now... But I am very depressed because I can't finish school this year. My grades were so bad toward December because I was in the hospital more than school, so I will redo that semester in September and my final semester in January. I cannot do anything .. I am at home doing fuck all, all day.
Anyone else go though a similar situation? Anyone with my illness also? Always love talking to people who go through what I go through.
Might upload a picture later.
Thanks for reading, just needed to get this out there.
