People always told me to quit before college and I am starting a personal rehab today
Ive been taking TOXIC amounts of methadone/norco 10|325/Tylenol 3
I wanted to hide my life from others because in my first high school I was bullied terribly and I just didn't want to be bullied anymore so I thought at first I was going to play video games all day and my pain will go away. I won $1500 that year in CoD Pro winnings but my grades suffered. I ended up being expelled and transfered to another high school
I switched to another high school and these people made me feel inadequate or as if I didnt belong. This was the same school I met the girl who got in bed with my old time friend. This school had kids who were just plain old rich and I was that kid who shopped at sales at jc pennies hoping for a $5 shirt. They had no sporting programs at the school or anything and I didnt want to get out of school so by the last semester of this school, I found my dads stash of medications. I was taking minimum amounts but it got worse
my last high school I went to was where it got messed up. I was a cold person because I was just tired of being lonely so I made myself lonely by taking medications and being a dick to everyone around me. Everyone around me wanted myself to quit but they weren't friends I thought would stick around. By the last semester of this school, it was a regular thing and if I didn't take it then I wasn't ever right and people would tell me , " you aren't yourself"
I start college on August 24th and I am trying to be apart of my schools cross country team. They said they were in the Big 8 Conference so I want to at least push for something.
So yeah, I want to get clean. Today is the first day.
