Well not quite at that age are people still confused, I cant say i know exactly what your going through but im gay and im 20. At the age of 17 I was in love with having sex with men but I was in love with a women its quite confusing but not so if you think about it, I always had dreams of getting married and having kids and all of that stuff but I knew I couldnt stay on the same track and be happy. Soon in life its going to get to the point where you have to make a choice does a man make you happy or does a women. Your going to have to put your life in prospective to set up for your future, you cannot always be a man whore but Love women in the same aspect you cant stay in love with women and have sex with men. Sexual activities bring feeling/Love into things and this is where the most confusion comes in are you actually in love with men or just the sex, now with women do you love sex with women or are you just in love with the human aspect of every man there is a women and for every women there is a man. You really have to do some soul searching to figure out what you want in life, and its possible going to be one of the hardest decisions in your life.
Now with all that being said here are the 2 options and it was laid out in my mentality.
Being with a guy:
The world is basically against you, you will lose friends in this process and go through a phase where you will basically hate yourself because you tend to let everything that other people say to you get to your head and make you feel bad about everything you do and because you are in love with men. People are going to judge you that just how the world is. Now weather you let that hinder you is your own decision its the choice you made and you have to deal with it. Now there is also a good part to being with a man. Well first if thats what you want to do you will be happy also you will have a common goal in life. Prove others wrong men can also make men happy.
Being with a women:
Well there are loads of things I can tell you good about being with a women, Kids, family, friends, no one hates you all these things are good, but in my opinion men hold more of a bind that a women, i believe its harder for a man to love than a women and the binds are harder to break, Saying it takes about 50% effort to be with a women because its the way of the world. It takes about 150% of effort to be with a man because of the things you will go through and things you have to put behind you and stick it out together because its not the way of the world.
Well man its all your choice most likely if you are in love with having sex with men but you love women it will be hard for to you linger to one side because sex is mostly confused with love and comparability. Basically saying if you are in a relationship with a women and you tell her you love her but your having sex with a man most likely your actually leaning more toward the man because its something of spontaneousness and its what you want and feel you need.
Actually I would love to hear more about what you are going through maybe chat on skype or something it kinda feel like you are going through exactly what I was going through when I was 17.
