krutoi's pardon

So. How do I begin this. Woah. This took some time to think and to formally put all my thoughts together but here goes this. Hopefully you can read throughout everything, then give your thoughts about it.

1. Most of you won't know me but I have been here since Mar 14, 2011 . Banned on 2015 because I did not pay a dice bet. Let me explain why i didn't. At this time, I was living with my now ex-girlfriend. We had problems like all relationships do, we argued that much that after 1 year living together and 4 years of relationship that relationship went down the sewer.
I had a mental breakdown, I enjoyed being outside the real world playing here and there and minding my own business, selling stuff i did not want over here, swapping them, dicing with people and so on. I broke up with her in December. I was depressed, felt like shit. She would contact me anywhere I was, even here. That thing took over me and I really did not know what to do, I knew we weren't gonna be together anymore so I decided to do a stupid thing. Risk something I did not had (money) and try to play the "Russian roulette" which ended in a total fiasco. Hence the ban.

2. I don't know why at that point I did not want to just straight ask for a self ban. I am really thinking why I didn't. I guess the greed took over me and I wanted to bet something I wasn't ready to pay. For instance, I was broke, no money, low paying job and a girlfriend who would leech from me every single penny I had. ( I know this ain't no excuse but that's just how it was, no runarounds , no nothing).

3. Damn so much happened after that relationship. Life took well care of me, I have my family which is the best thing I will ever have. I am working now, have people around me who look after me, take care of me, anything some guy would ask.

4. It took 3 years for me to try and appeal for something I deeply regret. Mostly because people try to blame others for their own mistakes and I was like everyone else, even though they had nothing to do with what was going on your life. That's what literally drove me insane, I felt really bad and wanted to express myself in the worst way I could and I guess it was just to blame and fuck someone who had nothing to do with my life or me feeling bad overall.


5. I don't know if there is someone that is still known to me working over here. I remember Roary, Superman, and some others. If someone could bring up my ban case and maybe try and repay the member I scammed so we can have that sorted out? Thank you in advance.

6. I used to spend here most of the free time I had. I could have created multiple accounts and evade or some sort of annoying stuff but the guys who knew me over here knew how I was. I never said I did not scam no one I just said yeah, that was me, assumed the ban because indeed it was me who scammed the user which again, I want to apologize but that was the only thing I saw viable back in the days. Hopefully there is something I can do.

 

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