Struggling with Depression/Drug Addiction

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You can message me anytime bro i got skype aswell , U need 2 get things right with the Mrs , even just a text or a call to let her know u r ok ...u have done the right thing isolating yourself to get ur head straight to be honest but with the depression etc don't give her the wrong idea saying stuff u don't mean ....

U R not a bad bloke , you've reached out for support in the right way if you were a crack head with no priorities you wouldn't be here you would be on a scam quit to blaze some crack and forget about it ...

Pray + reach out to Jesus i was in your boat this time last year .. yeah i'v had relapses ( check the spam forum ) but it's about getting back on the wagon with the right support network even if they are just a phone call away .


P.S Ur family love u , u are not a burden .

 

Hey buddy,

I don't personally know you and we haven't really talked before, but to see someone who suffer isn't fun at all and you deserve some positive words from the community you're apart.

The good news is that you recognize the problem and that is a big step more than you would think. What I would do is reach out to family, especially the ones you're close with. Like @Clinton4Jail said, you're better off isolating yourself from your wife and kids for now in case you do/say something you don't mean, as they will be the key to your return on the right path once the bigger issues will be solved.

Now, I'm not exactly sure what you mean by doctor, but if you mean a regular doctor, I'd go with something higher which would be a psychologist and if the results aren't conclusive, you can even try a psychiatrist.

From what you wrote, you leaving your job and losing the motivation to keep moving forward are strong indications that you definitely need help. I wish you the best of luck with your recovery. Stay positive and think about the future you want to have with your wife and kids.

You'll get through this.

 

Stay strong man

 

Hey man sucks to see you go through this.

I personally am still young (19) and have been struggling with depression and cannabis addiction for around a year, im in a "good phase" generally speaking right now and therefore have been trying to find a way to fight/deal with it.

I think its important for us to talk to people about it and i know from experience how hard it is to open up to family about drugs. I feel deep shame when talking about weed around my parents dont really fully understand that yet.

If you need to talk, hit me up, you can tell me how you are feeling and maybe i can relate. I currently study psychology and i plan to work on these kind of problems. Anyway hang in there man, today ill say it gets better, even though some days i cant believe that either.

 

Heavy gains I have been around the block a few times I can give you some insight and maybe some help if u need it aswell . Message me anytime

 

Thanks for all the Support, Yeah I think I just had a bad week and didn't really know how to handle it.
I'm back at home, and still taking some time to myself gona Start looking for a job again on Monday.
and see how it goes.

 

Feeling upset, depressed, angry, suicidal? Useful links and numbers.

 

you should find a hobby or a job, have some sort of routine and goals to not think about getting high. you will get through it it's hard before easy

 

Yea coke and crack are not to be F*CKED With mate!

You have problems real problems as it a serouse drug you are taking which will you you.

You need to consider rehab and going clean for your kids if not for your self

 

Hey man,

I know how life gets, I know it pushes you to the edge. It's worth it. Let me tell you a little story about my life and I guess how it influenced me to be the guy I am today.

When I was 13, my dad passed away, extremely unfortunate but it happened. I didn't want to wake up, I didn't want to go to school, I didn't want to do anything except sleep. A few years passed, I was around 15 which is when I really started to program and it just moved all my shit away, it was like I was in my own world - nothing bothered me.

You're probably asking yourself, what the fuck does this have to do with me? Simple brother, find something you enjoy, can be anything, and do it. Give yourself a reason to get up in the morning, do stuff with the kids, take them camping, go on a road trip. Do stuff that makes you happy, do something that you enjoy. This won't happen overnight, but it will help in long run.

Also don't feel like you're a burden, or you're a "problem" to society, we all have emotions for a reason. Some of us can't handle them as well as others, for example you and I. So we need to just step back a little from our busy day-to-day lives and see the bigger picture in life. I've got a car I absolutely love spent over $50,000 on it, I've got a girlfriend I plan on proposing to extremely soon and the list goes on. I have no doubt in my mind, your kids are adorable and are your "knight in shining armour". You sound like a good guy man, my advice to you:

1. Forget about rehab centres, the only rehab you need is close ones and activities you enjoy.
2. If you really don't have anything you enjoy, do a programming course - possibilities are endless when you know how to write code.
3. The money you spend on drugs, put it aside and buy your kids toys, take them out, have fun with them. Spend it on something you'll see a benefit out of.

Options are endless man, you just gotta choose which one is best for you. If you need anything feel free to add me on skype: [email protected] I'd be more than happy to help you get on your feet.

Good luck brother,
Selvi

 

If you don't feel like you can do it for yourself, do it for those who care about you.

We got you my dude

 

As @Zero said the hardest / most important part is recognizing the problem >and then choosing to do something about it.< There are a variety of options available to recovering drug addicts these days, whether it be maintenance drugs, drug-assisted detox, or other rehab centers, there's always help for those who want it.

I don't know much about cocaine withdrawals, but what you described sounds a lot like post acute withdrawal syndrome, which people experience after stopping continued use of opiates (not sure if it's a blanket term that covers other drugs as well). The way I describe PAWS is as an 'adjustment period.' You've been performing your day-to-day activities for the past few years while receiving the warm hug from the inside that opiates provide you, or the euphoric tingly happy feeling that you get from good cocaine. Then all of a sudden you drop all of that, and believe it or not those simple activities like talking to a stranger become completely different and significantly more difficult. If it is indeed PAWS that has you feeling down, to my knowledge there's not much you can do about it except recognize what's happening to your mind/body and living with it until you can overcome it.

Best of luck to you homie

 

Sounds like Manic Depressive, I have the same problem. I did the same exact thing. I smoke pcp though. quit both my jobs because I was depressed and couldn't work. lost my apartment and car. Only thing you can do is do what makes you happy. sleep and relax. if you want try seeing a psychologist about medication for manic. Me personally I don't like medication so I deal with the cycle.

 

The hardest part is wanting to get better, and it sounds like you're on the edge but not quite there. Sometimes it gets really fucking shitty before you realise it's worth getting better. Don't let it get to that stage, sort it now before you have to. Go take your kids out, watch them be happy and give them someone to look up to and be proud of. Set them up so they never have to feel like you do.

Find those things in life that make it worth pulling yourself out that rut for, it only takes 10 seconds to shake yourself off and get the fuck up - and you can do it if you really want to.

All the best.

 

Thanks for all the kind comments and motivation, Had so much more time to spend with my family since I quit my job which has helped so much, Got a job interview for tomorrow morning, so heres hoping.

I'm sure the real test's are still to come.

 

This is so much harder than I thought.

 

Give us an update as to where you are now and what you've been doing to help yourself man!