Post Something Negative About Yourself That You'd Like To Change

I'm one hell of a nit-picker and I just realized that today... trying to work on it so if something isn't perfect I just let it go and let it be the way it is instead of thinking about it over and over again. "Oh why is it like that? It should be like this." It's crazy because I never knew this about myself before, it just hit me today how obsessive I am about things. My birthday is tomorrow turning 23, the wisdom teeth coming in.

 

very lazy trying to fix it

 

^ i'm very lazy when it comes to the smallest things, i've recently been having to make myself not even think about what i'm too lazy to do, but rather just get up an do it

 

Starting to develop a coffee addiction. Only started drinking coffee maybe two-three years ago, but been drinking at least two L coffees a day for the last few months now though. I feel overall lethargic if I don't drink at least one in the morning. Soon as this semester is over, I'm going to stop drinking it unless I'm hungover.

I don't want to be dependent on some bullshit like coffee and really if I can save $4-5 a day that I'd otherwise be spending on coffee, I'd save about $32 a week, or about $140 a month, or about $1680 a year. Could get into cocaine for a few weeks every year with that sort of surplus $$ laying around.

 

I procrastinate small things.

 

Laziness, I'm by no means out of shape but I need to find more motivation to get up and go to the gym.

I'm a relatively skinny guy and would enjoy bulking up a good bit.

 

I try to do things the "easy way" to avoid hard work. This is a double edge sword as it sometimes works and sometimes comes back to me.

 

I have a difficult time waking up super early. I'd love to be the efficient business man that gets up @ 5:00 Am every day.

 

I have a lot of trouble getting motivated for studies I don't find terribly useful. Thankfully, I was able to find the motivation for Calculus after not getting it for a while! Oddly enough, for me to understand math to its fullest I need to see a practical use in it, not just a formula on a piece of paper.

 

I don't think about the feelings of the people close to me enough before opening my mouth and would like to change that.

 

Spend too much cash on food and am generally undriven. All sorts of ideas on things to do/make/learn but if I'm tired or had a long day all I want is to relax so I'll play games or watch videos.