Suicide?

Well 3 years ago I was at a birthday party and started throwing up. I didn't think anything of it but for some reason when I tried to go to school a week later, I had a panic attack in the car. The councilor had to come out and shit. The next time I tried to go to school I couldn't. I didn't go to school the rest of that year or even leave the house. I had seen a few therapists and had to quit basketball. I changed schools again and saw more therapists and tried more medicine. Skipping ahead I basically lost all my friends because of this (I couldn't see them), I had to quit my 2 club basketball teams because I couldn't go, I rarely left the house (maybe once a week for therapist), I got depressed and miserable, and had to like change my life. To this day I lost all of my old friends basically, I can't play sports anymore (all my new friends, which is only a few want me to play on the football or basketball team with them), I'm miserable, I don't have fun doing anything, I'm not ever happy, and I want to die.


Also add skype if you want instead. (in sig) Sometimes I don't look at sythe for a few hours.

This is basically the summary of my past few life. I thought I'd just post this because hopefully someone will be kind enough and try to help a bit. I just can't be happy or anything. If I ever stop posting or responding on skype (to people who have me added), you will know what happened.

This may be goodbye sythe. Not sure.

-Matt/datpo

 

What grade are you in?

 

Just went into 11th.

 

How long have you been taking the antidepressants for?

Medicines don't get rid of the root cause for depression, it's only a placebo that subconsciously suppresses your urges.

I've been dealing with depression through my highschool years and I had to face them in order to graduate. Staying home and not going to school doesn't do you much good. Just remember when you graduate you don't have to deal with these issues.

Killing yourself doesn't get rid of the pain. It's carried on by your loved ones and leaves the burden on them for not being able to help you.

Just something to remember.

 

I've been taking prozac since I think 4th grade, so like 7 years. I will though when I graduate too. Also I couldn't go to school for the first few days this year because I had a panic attack every time I tried to go.

 

The side effects of prozac are nervousness, so that in combination with stress can cause panic attacks. I'm not saying to discontinue the use of your prescriptions, but to console your doctor/therapist about the further use of it.

Is the school you're attending your new school? If so, it sounds like you're just nervous. The prozac just may be magnifying the level of your nervousness.

 

I'm 21 years old now 4 years ago when I was 17 I was at a party first year in University I smoked this really good weed like amazing kush it actually ended up making me have a panic attack... Holy crap I thought I was dying my heart was racing my hands were sweating I was hyper ventilating let's just say I was going crazy.

From there I was prescribed Lorazepam very addictive and bad drug it kept me from having panic attacks though. For about 2 months I was on it until I decided to get off without my doctors approval. First 3 weeks were living hell my chest was always causing problems for me had a couple panic attacks.

After I got off that bull shit I decided to face my biggest fear smoke weed again and see if it would trigger a panic attack. It did obviously but this time I knew how to deal with it. So now 3 and half years later I got my degree got a job and still smoke weed I did experience a panic attack about 3 weeks actually funny story I got crazy high again from a bong but at the same time I knew I wasn't in any real danger.

My advice get of the meds learn to deal with your anxiety another way... Actually what ever causes your anxiety in this case I guess your nervous... Become social face your biggest fear head on it's all in your head don't let your mind control you... You control your mind.

 

Not gonna piss on you even more and say some shit that might come off as an attack but the fact that you made this topic is more then clear that you wont off yourself.

I have been in your shoes and probably still am in some sort.

Since i graduated highschool i lost touch with all friends, ended up being major depressed, would sleep for 14 hours a day and just lock my self in my room.

Was ready to kill my self, run away or w/e just to get out of this mode i was in but i didnt have the balls.
Ended up being passed by everyone school wise and for 3 years i was in a coma but i was still alive, i would just eat and sleep.

Got called into the army and everything changed.


My point is, seek out the change. you are still young so finish what you are doing now and challenge yourself by moving to a new state where nobody can help you and you rely on yourself, that where our humand mind kicks in and we go into survival mode and you will seek out options to make yourself feel better.

Pm me if you ever need to talk.

 

I take prozac as an anti-depressant and we think that's partially why this all started. My psychologist at the time tried to ween me off of it. Also, I take xanax pretty much daily before school to not get anxious. It's not the new school part, I went last year also.

 

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Hello Datpo,

First off just know you are not alone, there are alot of other people who suffer from panic attacks and depression. I myself have lots of depression, losing all of your friends is horrible, just remember it gets better. Take out everything that is causing depression in your life and trust me, this is a big help just stop giving a shit about anything that is causing your depression, always remember suicide isnt the answer, if you want to talk my skype is king.flameburst

 

Things will get better, maybe not now or tomorrow but they will get better.

 

Please don't an hero.