Lame123 Pardon #(4?)

Dearest Sythe.org community/N4N0/Trin

I deeply apologize for everything I put you through. I was always nervous about everything and allowed my spur-of-the-moment emotions to take hold. I became callous, unloving, and lustful. Even now, a year and a half later my heart is still as broken as ever, knowing that I brought this pain upon myself, but you most importantly. I wish I could tell you this to your face. I dream of that night constantly, and even the slightest thought of it brings me to tears. I know you know how I reacted then. I regret that too.

About 1 and a half years ago I was arrogant, entitled, and rude. I was also very insecure, and going through some bad family/relationship problems. You were a smart, nice,and intelligent administrator. I can see your efforts to better the site in a place that does not always appreciate you. Sometimes we think back on a situation and realize we may have completely misinterpreted events and were actually in the wrong when we thought the other party was.

We realize our error, our completely inappropriate behavior given the circumstances, and apologize. It may not be a deep and profound apology but it is still sincere.While other times we begin to fully understand the extent of damage that we cause ourselves and others due to our behavior. We learn the true meaning of regret and remorse and are deeply sorry for what we've done.
I don't know how I will ever forgive myself but I am working on it. I don't expect you to forgive me. But nothing will ever excuse my hurtful behavior and bad choices.

 

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