is there anything left?

I was going to post this anonymously but I just don't care...

I feel like there is nothing left for me to live for, I feel like a screw up who can't do anything right. I've been deeply depressed for sometime and it hasn't gotten any better. I recently lost my job and I feel like I will never live up to my dad's expectations. I want to prove to him that I can support myself one day and that I don't need him to help me to survive.

My step mom always bashes me and puts me down verbally, I don't know if I have anything left to keep working for. I love my family and friends but most of the time I don't even feel like they would miss me if I were gone.

All I do is sit at home all do doing almost nothing...I think about it a lot but I don't think I could go through with it, I love my girlfriend and friends dearly. I don't think I do such a selfish thing...I don't know what I need but I need something, I just want to feel loved.

I know most of this probably doesn't even make sense but I just need something to make me feel better.

 

You have a girlfriend and friends, you got lots to live for. Get out of the house with your girlfriend and friends more. You're going through rough times atm and feel down, it happens to everyone. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. I know it doesn't sound good to hear, but you just need to push on through it and things will pick up again.

 

Stick in there. Maybe the last five years of your life haven't been the greatest, but think about how your life could turn around; you have so many more years to live. Anything can happen to turn your life around. I'm sure your dad is happy with who your truly are, he wants you to be happy too. And I was always taught (being brought up in a religious family) that people feeling that they are missing something is when they are missing Jesus. I don't think I should dive into a religious discussion and try to convert you, but if you need questions answered or someone to talk to, you can always PM; I will be there. Hang in there, life will get better.

 

There are loads of things left to do! you seem to have taken a great fall. Don't worry about what your step mother says or what she thinks about you!

I think what you should do now is slowly pick yourself up and gradually prove to them who you actually are! It will take time, but no rush.

Also, you should make a to-do list and list down the things you want to do/achieve in your lifetime. This will help you, definitely!

 

I have felt like that once before. Trust me, you will feel better over time. As for now just try out new things and find something you really really enjoy. For me it was guitar hero. A little silly I know, but it was something that kept me going. Something that got me to wake up every morning so that I could get better and better at it.

Also, your friends and family do care. Why don't you let them in on whats going on? They will be able to show you that they do care and that should be a real booster.

Another thing if you aren't doing this already is to just get outside. Drag yourself out the door if you need to, but the sun helps you feel better by the vitamins your skin absorbs.

Wishing you luck on this journey,
Obzen Sky

 

I, too, have been feeling depressed lately. It always calms me down to think about the future. Everytime you feel like this, go for a walk, or go do something you really love. You should stay away from alcohol and drugs, as that can make you quite depressed. All i can say is, do not take any "Happy Pills" from your Grand Ol' Doctor.

 

Like the others said: It all gets better with age dude. Im 15 and I have been to multiple institutions,Hospitals,ETC. for a hope for a "quick fix". But unfortunately....Life is a bitch most of the time..and again: IT WILL GET BETTER WITH AGE. I was expelled from my middle school for 1 year and got into 17 fights. ANYWAYS: Life is tough when your young like us ( Unless your not young, then I dont really know what to say O.O ). Hang in there AND DO NOT! DO NOT! GIVE UP!

Hope this gave you some re-assurance.

- Grady ^.^

 

lol I'm 15, really depressed for my whole life.. my dad raped my sister .. my family is dysfunctional, my sister is a insecure, slutty bipolar psycho, my family is poor as fuck, my mom taught me nothing in life. You have it good bro, I don't know what the fuck im gonna do in the future, my brother is 29 and lives here, my sister is 26 and lives here.. am I next to take a spot in the live with mommy train?

 

Runer4ng3, you choose for yourself how your future is going to end up. If you keep telling yourself that your going to end up on the mommy train you probably will. You need to set some goals for yourself and better your situation. Gradutate high school, find a job, move out, juggle with college, these are just some goals you can set for yourself to get you motivated on not ending up like the rest of your family. Push your hardest and you will succeed. It will not be handed to you, you have to work for it.

 

I'm an idiot.. I'm almost a junior and I struggle with pre-algebra however I'm good at English lol i just dont know, hopefully i can major in computer hardware or something

 

Pick what you want to do and go for it.
If you would like to do computer hardware why don't you check out this link: http://education-portal.com/computer_hardware_engineering_colleges.html

Pick which college is best for you and do a little research. Find out what the requirements are to get into it and give your 100% effort into making it happen.

 

Try talking to your girlfriend about it maybe. Even if she doesn't have any solutions or anything, it may be good for someone close to you to understand your issues

 

What you need is to get out and find a hobby ( paintball, sports, etc..) Quit the net and you will be fine!

 

Get something to do, you will feel better.

 

Oh man that sounds depressing, those feelings creep to me aswell during autumn. Best thing you can do is taking a step at once and start to get more social with friends, hang out and just try to live the life.

 

I used to have kind of the same feelings. Back in middle school, I felt like a total failure, because of terrible grades. Then, my parents had me go back to China (where I was born) one year. They sent me to this village, where I had to work backbreaking hours on a rice paddy (at first I thought it was fun, until I had to do it repeatedly....). The work took all hours of the day, and by the time I was done, they told me that I earned about 8 RMB for that work, if i was being paid. To put this into perspective, I earned a dollar for a 10 hr workday in the sun. Yes, I just earned a soda for that, and these farmers had to do this on a DAILY BASIS for the REST OF THEIR LIVES. I was told by my parents to then follow them wherever they went, and not mention anything about my life to anyone except my hosting family. At first, I thought that this was a punishment for me doing badly in school. I thought that my parents were extremely pissed at me. So, I followed along, and ate their food. It was an extremely hard time, as almost everything they did was uncomfortable to me. The only thing they ever ate was rice, rarely anything else. When I came, they slaughtered a single chicken for me, to celebrate my coming. Deep down, after a week of being there, I realized that that chicken, which in America would take about 3 hours of minimum wage to earn, must have been a gigantic sacrifice for them, who raised it from birth. When they "washed" clothes, it was in a river which was very likely polluted by waste upstream. Worst of all, was the looks that I received while following the farmers to the cities to sell things. Everyone in the city looked at me with dirty glances, as if I was dirt. They spoke with tones dripping of condescension, and tried to cheat me because they thought I was bad at basic Arithmetic. Everywhere I went, I heard mothers warning their children that if they didn't behave, They would end up like Me (pointing at me...). I wanted so badly to just give up the promise not to tell anyone that I wasn't a farmer; I desperately wanted to just shout at the people who spoke down at me, saying who were THEY to speak to me like that? I was sick and tired of the life, constantly being beaten down mentally by people passing by, pretending that I wasn't there, not to speak until spoken to. As I was about to break my promise one day to a particularly bad "customer" who insulted my intelligence and basic ability to do math, sick of the long workdays without sufficient pay, sick of the uncleanliness of everything, sick of all the degrading attitudes, I realized at that moment, that was what my parents meant for me to learn.
There is WITHOUT A DOUBT, Hundreds of MILLIONS, possibly BILLIONS of people willing to do ANYTHING to trade places with you and me. They have been abused their entire life, and suffer from starvation and degradation. Make the best of what you have, and motivate yourself to always move ahead.
To steal a quote from a Mod,
"You're going to be okay. Maybe not the same, but still okay"

 

You just have to bear with it. You have your friends beside you. Go out and spend time with them and explain your problem to them and indeed they will/can help you out. You have your girlfriend. I bet she would help you in any way that you need. For now, just try to stay with them and always have outdoor exposure.

 

Man, I felt like something close to this in the winter, I was in great depression for like 4 months. Dude just forget about the stressful things. Go hang out with friends, cough fuck your girlfriend cough cough, and stick up to your stepmom. Don't let people put you down, please do not kill yourself that just shows how weak of a person you are. STAY STRONG BRAH

 

are these really true?

Anyway seriously, if you guys think your life is sh*t right now how much more those people who had no arms and legs begging all day, kids in the street eating left overs in a trashcan, teens that can't have a girlfriend becoz of deformalities. There are alot more who has shittier life than you but chooses to be happy, it's up to you really on how you carry things your in right now. appreciate what you have right now, cherish them before they're gone, dont go trying to please your dad if you're just being pressured to do it,
let it be, learn not to care what other people think sometimes or you will just be frustrated and people will just end up hating you instead. its all in your mind man, just look for something you are interested about.

 

Everyone goes through tough times. Some more tough and some not as tough as others but just make sure you work towards your goal and do what you want in life. You will eventually end up happy, nothing to kill yourself or be depressed over.

Don't worry, be happy. Because every little thing, will be alright.