Lost about life

So i'm about to turn 18, literally have moved more then 5 times in the same state because i get tired of the people i live with. My sister and i were parted from our parents at the age of 1 and picked up by my grandfather who had raised us until we were 15, my highest education level i have passed is freshman year and dropped out after it was over. I have had one job at mcdonalds for 2 weeks and quit (I have problems sticking to one thing) I've been told i was lazy, which is why i can't seem to finish school or get a job but that's not it. I workout on a daily basis, help others when needed, and LOVE labor work. I guess i made this post to see if anyother kid out there is like me. Lost. I'm not sure what i want in life, nor would really care if it wasn't so real. I don't know what to do, I've considered suicide but there's something in this world that keeps me from doing it. I would miss my life even though it has no meaning to anyone. I can't imagine my future, and will probably go through with suicide once my grandfather dies because when i think of him dying, he's the only one i think about not being here and getting teary eyed. I feel like i'm being tortured through life and it drives me crazy. I'm surprised i made this post because when i think about all this stuff it literally makes me confused to the point where i just stop thinking about it, but i can't run from it, can't run from life. So please, if someone out there thinks the same i will help you if you help me. Thank you.

 

Hey there are plenty of people out there like you! Looking at myself, I am somebody who gets completely bored of things but at some point you definitely need to push through some things as opposed to just opting out and not doing them. Take for example your job, you'll need a job through your life in one way or another. For somebody who likes labour work there's plenty of opportunity in oiling communities and fields like those.

Life gets tough sometimes, but realizing who you are and what you enjoy is a huge part of it and once you figure that out you can circle your life around those things that you enjoy.

 

I'm kind of like that, I'm not entirely sure what to do as well but I do care if its real. I'd rather live in truth than illusion. Look man, maybe we can play rs and figure out wat to do? If mcdonalds would see that you do like labour maybe they could rehire you and put you on a better job that would keep you busy. Maybe its something to do with your horoscope?