:/

i think ive got depression.

ive got everything a person could want, i high paying job and a loving family/girlfriend and yet i still feel unfulfilled i am currently home alone and feeling all the anxiety and loneliness kick in.. i gamble as it makes me feel better.. until i lose in which i hit a lower low..

My CURRENT girlfriend thinks i have bio polar due to i can go from Mad to suddenly happy within an instance but in my mine i am just able to drop my anger, i don't know what to do anymore. I refuse to go to a doctor who will just confirm my suspicions and i am a very open minded person and can see stuff from others point of view;.. im thinking i,m still in love with my ex girlfriend who treated my like absolute shit and dumped me for no reason and cut me off.. its been 14 months since i have talked to her and now she has had a boyfriend for past 10 months...
7/8ths of me want her dead, while 1/8th of me still wants her :S

This is my story what do you think

 

It sounds like your depression steams from your ex girlfriend and not anything else, are you sure you still love her? Or it's just lust from seeing her with someone else? I stick by my saying if you truly like/love someone, tell them, don't leave it till tomorrow because it could be too late, and if that person doesn't feel the same way then don't stop trying, never give up, but that's a total different topic.

Maybe you are better off going to the doctor? I know you're scared as I was when I went to the doctor about my depression, but they really help you out and if it's really bad they'll offer you medication that will make you feel happy again.

 

You need to occupy yourself with something other than gambling. Try going to the gym or any other healthy activity on your free time to enjoy yourself and take your mind off things.

 

I say stay away from your ex girlfriend. She seems like a total waste of time. Sure you'll still think about her if you still love her, but the thoughts will go away eventually. To cope with your depression just try and find some thing productive to do while your alone so you won't think about your ex or other depressing things, maybe take up a hobby like fishing or some thing, always seems to help me clear my head when i go for a hike or fishing for the day.

 

I think maybe you should clear up things with your ex and stop gambling, get her/that out the picture THEN see if you still think you're depressed. Feeling down and moody is most commonly mistaken for depression when it's just a rough time.

 

I relate to this feel.

 

You need closure with your ex, homie. Until then you're gunna be outta whack.

 

You should stay away from your EX-GF. If someone treats you like shit, you should treat them like shit also. In my case i like to flush my shit away, lol.

Anyway, you should go outside. Meet some new people. Hang out with your family and friends. I am pretty sure the loneliness would go away. There is nothing wrong with gambling. You should be better when you stay away from it. I know how you feel bro. Life isn't great for everyonne, all time. Bad things feel good when you're sad,depressed and lonely.

You should go to the doctor tho. It would make you feel alot better, I know that for sure.

I hope i could help you. You can PM/Skype me if you need any help.

 

Im all Good Until i finish work... i love my job takes up 10 -11 hrs of my day... its just when i hit the weekends :/
i work as a shearer so i get alot of physical exercise , as for the gambling i make 1000-1500( after tax) and i would probly gamble $200-400 a week it doesnt affect my lifestyle as i still live at home, i just gamble as it is more of a passtime.. but i do feel as if i am starting to get a problem as i can put $50 in get it to $400.. and still just keep playing as i dont consider $400 as much money

as for the hangout with friends... I've lost nrearly everyone of my friends due to the Fucking ex.. She must have talked some serious shit to them after i left school over her

 

so i have just found out someone has eigther hacked ,my acc + skype or remoted my pc... just hit a new low.. most likely will be bye bye sythe due to cant afford to refund guy scammed ( if its my fault)

 

Before you go, you need to relax about your ex. I'm going to tell you again, you need closure. You're obsessed with her because you're still stunned and confused why she broke up with you and starting dating some other guy. It hurts, I get it, I've been there before. Finally, I confronted her, asked her what happened, what went wrong, what's her deal. I got some straight answers, and best of all we stopped being mortal enemies. After that, I felt so much better, my mood brightened and it felt like a whole metric shit ton of bullshit was lifted off my shoulders.

If you're not banned I'm going to assume you're going to reply with some shit about how either you can't talk to her, or she won't talk to you. You have to try dude, 'cause look where doing nothing but feeling sorry for yourself has got you. Give it a shot

 

i litterally cant.. last time i tried talking to her i got a call from the coppers threatning restraining order if i speak to her again

all i was trying to do is find out exactly why... but all that first parragraph is exactly true

 

Shit homie you really dated a psycho ass bitch. But think about it this way: you got a girlfriend who is probably cool as fuck, you got a high paying job. Find some shit that really makes you happy and alive. Hell even buy some sportbike, if you like the adrenaline rush gambling gives ya, wait till you're ripping a 160 on a deserted highway, then you'll know the true meaning of adrenaline. It sounds cliche as shit but if you feel sorry for yourself you're going to like a loser. Once your ex gets one glimpse of you being successful and happy, it'll probably kill her inside thinking "wow, i dumped that bad ass motherfucker for this loser? shit did i ever fuck up". it'll be fuckin glorious bruh

 

i had the same thing dude made a lot of money, had a lot of woman, bought a house, couple cars, felt like shit later on and i dropped my shitty job and am currently trying to accomplish things that i ENJOY and am INTERESTED in and i am becoming happy one day at a time

 

Thaanks for the advice .. Ive been wanting to go skydiving for ages... I might actually book it now because what you said