Life as of right now

Hello its HNCdice (smoke),
I cannot post a thread since I'm banned at the moment until my paypal clears up.

Anyways,
So I feel as if my life is wasting away. My parents always compare me to my older brother and it's getting to the point where they i cannot tell if they genuinely dislike me or are just to preoccupied to care. I'm in university and it was a fairly hard thing for me to get adjusted too but i just finished my semester and did fairly well. I go to a 45k$/year college but with scholarships I only have to pay 5k/semester. My parents still are telling me that i should look at other colleges so i can work more as well. So that's exactly what i'm doing, to make them happy I looked for a better job. Today I had a interview at a ambulance company, I was hired on the spot for a 15$/hr job with benefits and i just recently turned 19 so it's a pretty damn good job for someone my age. However when I informed my parents i landed it, they quickly changed the subject too "maybe you should go to a community college or just drop out." They never congratulate my accomplishments and i feel as if they have all been in vein.

They always compare me to my 22 year old brother. He has 2 part time jobs working 48hrs a and was fired from a job for sexual harassment last week. yet they praise him like a god. They give me little to no attention and it pisses me the fuck off.

My parents are also divoreced and remarried, my dad has a new family and is very well off yet chooses not to be a major part of my life. My mom is crazy, ive been kicked out of my house about 20 times, and have lived in my car for weeks at a time. But i'm always forced to come back do to issues with money (i help pay bills).

So what the hell am i supposed to do. Its like my life has no meaning to my parents. I constantly strive to do my best and impress them but to no avail.

Cheers,
Smoke

 

Your 19 so no one is forcing you to move back in. If they continue treating you awfully, you're best of leaving for an extended period of time until they value you more, welcome you back, and than treat better. Otherwise, move out. If you're the one helping them with the bills, you should be right to live out of home.

 

Get a girlfriend, spend time with her, speak to your parents, tell them how you feel.

But seriously maybe a girlfriend may help?

 

Tbh, getting a girfriend would only make money things worse lol.


OT:
Man, tough shit right there.
Having your parents say you'd better drop out is fucked up.
Nobody, and i really mean NOBODY should do this.

If this college/whatever it is you're attending is your choice and you enjoy it, don't let it get under your skin.
(sorry don't live in USA, no knowledge of schoolsystem there)
Remember at ALL times you are getting education for YOUR greater good, not for your mom, not for your dad, for YOU.
If they can't appreciate a thing you're doing, that's their problem.

Getting a 15$/hr job for a 19yo seems pretty cool, hope you are having a nice time there.


How is your relationship with your brother?
Don't see you mentioning anything about that here, is he 'in on it' aswell?

And if you keep moving back in just to help your mom pay for bills, why would you move back anyways?
If they are not grateful for your help with the bills I wouldn't go back there, ever, until they get a little respect for an adult..

Good luck bud!


edit:

pretty much this.
No respect/reward? Fine no bill-money.

 

Well if u are 18+ then you need to leave the past behind.
Ur parents are grow up already and if they can't handle the problems that's bad.
Get urself job,girl friend,start new life !
I don't see a reason for helping someone who kick you out for 20+ times.
Its not like i am super rich but i stop asking for money or anything before 11 years from my parents.
And i was just kid when i start earning my money and fight the world
You need to double check ur understanding about the life and how you want to rule yours..

 

Yeah I agree with this, try staying with a friend or another family member.