My life is a mess.

So this is more than likely going to wind up a jumbled up hunk of text that won't make any sense, but I'll try.

I've got a girlfriend of quite a long time who I love with all of my heart.. and I mean seriously, I won't give an exact timeframe or anything to avoid giving up my anonymity but it's been a long ass time. I currently live with her. That probably seems great, right? Right, except when you find out you're gay . I mean I love this girl with all of my heart, and I actually am attracted to her.. but I can't help but feel like it's not right. I can't imagine my life without her. I started having doubts in my early teens but never thought much of it. I was never lucky with girls, so I just contributed it to that.. but now I'm pretty sure I am. She's pretty open minded about most things, but I think this would be somewhat of a bombshell even to her. I know for a fact she'd feel lied to, like I didn't love her or that I think she's repulsive because she's female, but I don't. She's let me do things with guys before, I think she actually kind of liked it, but she thought I was doing it for her, not for me :/

I just really don't know what to do or what to tell her, if anything. I am perfectly content being with her, and I'm afraid this would mess things up for us. Advice?..

 

I would probably tell her, she should accept you.