Most painful event/situation you have lived through?

I can sympathize with you man, and relate slightly to your college struggle. I've spent this past year trying to clean up my life and get back on the straight and narrow path, and part of that has been getting the courses I need done to get into my program in September. I've had a seat in the program for a year, and finished every prerequisite course except for my math course. I've taken it twice, with the third attempt planned for this summer, but the bitter reality is that time has simply ran out. They will give my seat away as I failed to meet the math requirement by 2%, and it feels like the entire past year has been a waste of time & money.

Needless to say, my parents are pissed and disappointed, as they've tried very hard to be patient with me and get me back into a regular lifestyle and routine. I am very disappointed in myself as well, and now have to figure out what the hell I am going to do next year because now my plans have gone down the toilet.

So I can sympathize with you, I know how it feels I know that you are a smart kid though and that you can pass your course if you try again. I guess sometimes that is all we can really do.. just pick ourselves up, dust our failures off, and keep fighting the good fight until we triumph. Don't give up their Daniel

Wow man, I checked out the memorial page on Powerbot and he sounds like he was a really well known, well liked person There are lots of kind words from the members of the community on PB, and it looks like he was a good guy with lots of potential. Do you have any idea why he chose to take his own life? If you don't mind me asking.

I know how hard suicide can be to deal with, and I've experienced first hand the impact it has on the lives of the people who are left behind. I will never forget the day I woke up before school to hear my mom answer the phone, screaming and gasping out in disbelief that my cousin was dead. I found out later that day that her fiance had come home and found her hanging in their suite and had to cut her down by himself. It has left a crater in my family that will probably never heal, and all we have been able to do since that day is accept the bitter reality and move forwards from it with her in our hearts. I also lost a close friend of mine a couple years ago and that was very hard and affected all kinds of people.

I hope that you can take some time to remember Kyle for who he was and what he meant to you. As much sadness and grief comes with the tragic loss of life in a suicide, you can also find moments of happiness and joy when you reflect on that person's life and remember all the great times you had with that person. Kyle may be physically gone from this world, but nothing can ever take away the memories you have of him, and all the special times you guys shared together.

I wish you the best of luck as you continue to deal with this, and I hope that you can heal with time and find peace. Thank you very much for sharing your story here <3

This is a very inspirational story mate, and I thank you for having the courage to come forward and share it with us

Regardless of whether or not you think it is "as bad' as some of the other stories in this thread, I would have to say that repeated physical and emotional abuse is probably one of the most traumatic and devastating experiences that any person can go through. Being under constant intense pressure from your parent's to perform well in school and sacrifice your own happiness and leisure, and living in constant fear of being verbally and physically abused if you do not live up to your parents standards, is extremely traumatic for any one to experience, let alone a young child or a young man growing up in those circumstances.

I completely understand why you would eventually reach a breaking point where you just cannot take it anymore, and you think you are incredibly courageous for deciding to stick around a little longer and finding something positive to focus your mind on and help you look forward to a future. You might have had a rough time growing up yourself, but when you have a family of your own you can give your children a priceless gift that you never had, by loving them and being an encouraging, accepting, and understanding parent. Use the energy and motivation that comes from the bad things you've experienced, and use that to help you focus on your future and on how you can give your own children a wonderful childhood and show them that they are loved.

I think you've learned a very important lesson out of all of this, and have become a much stronger person for realizing that there are things in this world that make life worth living. I wish you the best of luck with your future and I hope you find happiness and build a beautiful family Thanks for sharing your story!

Oh, that is so good to hear! That is so beautiful that you got to be with her again in her final days before she passed, and I'll bet that meant the world to her to know that in her final moments you were there with her, and that she was not alone.

I'm sure that she would want nothing more for you than to be happy and live a fulfilling life of your own, free of grief, and I'm sure she is smiling down on your right now as she watches you grow into an adult and because she knows you still carry her in your heart.

A very sad story indeed, but beautiful in many ways. Thank you again for sharing, and I am glad to hear you are doing well all these years later