Love, Life, and Happiness

Hello everyone and thanks for those who take the time to read,

First off, I am looking for other views on the situation in my life I am going through right now.
Background:

I had taken years off of school (2) to work in the industry (bio-tech) and my salary is comfortably in the low six figures - but personally it is taking it's toll on my moral and mental state. Prior to taking time off, I was set on going to med school and recently reapplied and was accepted which had previously been my dream but at my current age I worry that I will miss out on the remainder of my young adult life.

Problem:

I find no happiness at my job and the future itself is abysmal as all my relationships in the past year have ended in me losing interest (which I attribute to acute depression that I take medication for). To me I never really believed in true love or any variant, but as time went on it has become somewhat of a life goal to be able to feel it. I feel that everyday gets shorter then the last.. which has started to impact my life in how I spend time in isolation (sleeping far too much and cancelling plans). A lot of my friends are also in similar points in their lives, but school is a 4 year commitment that I am not sure I will ever get back. Just curious how everyone evaluates their own lives, and if anyone is ever in conflict between these 3 aspects of life (and how they approach them).

 

You're not necessarily "missing out" on your young adult life. Just because you would be dedicated to school and setting yourself up for success doesn't mean that you're missing out on anything. If you're not happy right now, change the situation to see if anything inside you changes. Chase after the feeling of happiness if that's what you need.

The way I see it: so many people, yourself included, see their youth as the only happy time of their lives. You may be older later on, but you'll be more set in your life and there will be more things at your disposal. You'll be able to retire earlier, and do more things that you actually want to do. Chances are, you won't even stay in contact with the majority of the friends that you have now (especially since you said that your relationships have resulted in your loss of interest). When you've spent years and thousands of dollars in and on college, the friends you make in and after the process are more likely to be your lifelong friends (not to mention: colleagues).

You say you're taking meds. Are you seeing a therapist by chance? If that's your kind of thing, you could always go see a therapist for some guidance/advice.

Going back to school is hard for a lot of people, even if it's their #1 plan when they drop out. Take it from someone who has dropped out of college: don't. If the job you have now isn't what you want, and most non-degree jobs don't interest you, stay in school.