I don't really use this site much for a more personal support as I use Reddit primarily for this kind of thing. However, there is something that this site has and Reddit; the opportunity to go by a handle and for a sense of protection in terms of personal identity. As a generally happy person, it was hard to reach out to people to have someone I can open up to. It has been 3 years since I've had my first panic attack, I am still unemployed after graduating 2 years ago as I couldn't really find a temp job in the mean time while I am working towards my main career goal. Lately, I've been having an unnerving amount of suicidal thoughts to the point that it was getting uncomfortable that it pushed me out of my comfort zone to finally reach out to people. The first people I reached out to was my old Law professor back in College, so the last time we saw each other again was back in 2019, for some reason she just stood out as someone who would not judge me and view me differently. She was also one of the very few people who took notice of something I have no confidence on (such as writing), it is something I still think of from time to time. Sent out an email to her also telling her how much I appreciate that moment and let her know that as someone like me, who used to have a very good outlook and perspective in life, is currently not well. I've reached out to 2 people before, the other one I was able to talk about how hard unemployment is for me, and the other one I was able to talk about something slightly deeper. The email that I've sent to my professor however was the deepest message and the most uncomfortable for me to write, but I did it! Finally! No replies needed, just wanted to share this. May this also encourage those who wanted to seek help but find it hard to express themselves, maybe this might give you an idea who to talk to.