This forum helped me a lot

I used to be a guy with no self-confidence, the only thing I do when it's my free time (no school) is play video games whole day but I'm not obese though but just a little bit of a fat. I've read lots of thread here about the life of some people here and some of them are really bad and worse.

I hated my mom because I think she always under-estimates me and tells me that I look like I don't sleep anymore (but of course in a parent way) as I spend too much time in front of the computer, I used to wake up at 6 am in the morning then sleep at 12 am but now I sleep at the same time and wake up at 9 am so that's 9 hours of sleep and sometimes 10. I'm kept on doing that for like 3 months even though there is school on the next day and then when the school was almost over. I looked in the mirror and yes, I look so terrible, I look like I'm 8 years older and I planned to go to the gym (I posted a thread about it) since late March but to be honest, I haven't really went to the gym until yesterday because I always feel lazy and I'm like "Meh, I'll just go there tomorrow" again and again. So today, 4/22 I went to the gym with my mom (yes, April is almost over again and I haven't even started yet) and I feel shy and I feel like I want to tell my mom that we should go home but I kept on thinking the things that some people here told me and some motivating crap on the internet so I think maybe I'll just get used to it.

Yes, I am very addicted to gaming and I haven't even buy a new clothing or anything to wear for almost a year now because I keep on spending the money that my dad gives me every month on Steam (yes, Steam and I just wasted those money and it's about 2000$ and I started to use a new account now) but I told him to stop giving me money starting January and it pretty much made me gain some bits of my social life back but I really need to build self-confidence again as I used to be a kid that loves going to the mall, shopping, etc. but now when me and my friends go out, I feel shy and I feel like every one is looking at me.

So we went to the gym and bought a membership so I'm gonna start tomorrow but the instructor said I'll be starting to bodybuild next month but this month, it's just like a warm-up to make my body ready and when I got home, I feel better and it's like a big achievement for me. I gain weight from 2013 to this year and I think it's time for me to focus more on social life than gaming, someone in this forum said that I shouldn't waste the membership and I think that's correct, because it's always like, the other side of my head is telling me to stop this as I can't do it and it's impossible and I should just go home and sit in front of the computer while the other side of my head is telling me to do it as I have lots of goals in my life.

I just turned 15 yesterday though (Apr 21) and Roary greeted me :laugh:

If you think this is a troll, no this isn't.

 

Thats awesome man, sounds like things are going your way getting to the gym and all Just remember that nobody will give your success to you; you have to go it alone and make it happen. You'll show everyone who underestimated you when you turn it all around. You're young still, it's definitely not too late to make some changes to help benefit yourself and your confidence