It's worth a shot.

Removed, decided what im going to do. Thanks for the help whoever contributed. If a mod sees this now please lock it.

 

first off,
i think this post had a lot to do with trying to gain sympathy.
if it wasnt, you wouldnt be so melodramatic.
seems like your problems have stemmed from your own self and not environmental factors.

imo, you dont have a hard life if you are the cause of all your pain, you have a life of privilege.

now, with that out of the way.

for the debt, go to court witht he bank. they should not legally be allowed to put u in debt that much.(unless u had a guardian sign for the card)
i was mugged a few times. as you grow up and get out of that crowd you will notice they dont bother you as much.
this is what happened to me. I got mugged if i wore big puffy coats. I wear stylish shit now and no one fucks with me.

not getting diagnosed could limit your success in life much more than a simple label used by a psychiatrist.

you may have
paranoid personality disorder
schizoid personality disorder
generalized anxiety disorder
agoraphobia

go see a therapist. dont get on any medication until after you try to deal with your problems without medication.
psychotherapy does help in many situations.

 

You are on the right track with quitting drugs and admitting you have problems.

Everyone has their obstacles in life, yours are unique to you and I am sure were very difficult to overcome.
I would in fact suggest going to seek professional help, but will still offer any help I can.

You shouldn't be ashamed of anything in your life, you have lived through it and its in the past. Please, add my MSN so we can further discuss your situation, I don't want to make you feel uncomfortable here on these forums. Remember, we are here to help and anything said to me is completely confidential.
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Really the only way you can overcome this is to seek professional help. I'd recommend both doctor and therapist.

 

Booked an appointment with a psychiatrist, thanks for replies.