Meh, why not post it here?

Uh, warning: You can't troll me tbh, I'll throw down an amazing counter-troll if you want to attempt it in my thread that's actually being posted for a purpose. Not to have a fun little flame war. Although I do enjoy them, I'll just destroy your ass later down the road in a different thread.


tl;dr - I'm trying to work on the process of becoming a believable trap, and hopefully making friends with other people who may think the same way.

Now that that's out of the way. Ello' Sythe, you probably don't know me unless you have seen my post from the cheating/general section on the Runescape board on which I lurk, troll, and sometimes actually post a helpful tidbit of information if the OP isn't a jackass.. That, or just from older forums which I'm sure I know some people on here from, just haven't found them yet.

Anyways, let's get to the topic of my thread. I guess it counts personal.
I've always considered myself to be labeled as "straight"; though I don't believe in the titles, and I believe you are what you are. I have a girlfriend of almost two years, whom I do love.

Now starting at probably a year ago I noticed how I had an attraction to traps. I really have no attraction to actual men at all though. It's, I don't know. I just guess I like traps and like dressing, and doing the whole thing myself as well. I've done other shit too that is pretty much put under that "gay"/"experimentation" label which honestly isn't too bad..

Now don't get me wrong, I'm a pretty completely normal guy besides this. I have a seriously large obsession an accepting mind to pretty much any music, I skate, hang out with my friends on a regular basis, smoke, like to drink and go to parties, and pretty much just normal shit everyone does to have a good time when you're in my age range. Oh, I'm 18 by the way. I've got an average body type for my age, not massively muscular, and not a damn whale. Last time I weighed in I was at like 150lbs which I'm working on losing some of for figure purposes. You also seriously could not tell that I'm a complete computer nerd, and live my life on the internet when I'm not doing something away from home.

During the past year I will randomly dress up in my girlfriends clothes or something at her house, and I just find them comfortable. Like, they belong on me and I wouldn't mind wearing this kinda shit around. My girlfriend doesn't mind, and actually finds it hot; so that works for me. Now I've got a collection of clothes that I wear from time to time around the house and be comfy as can be. No I don't like putting on heels and walking around in a flower printed dress or shit like that. I just enjoy wearing comftorable shit like shirts, tank tops, jeans, cut off jeans, bottoms that are like 5 or so inches away from my knee kinda short stuff. Favorite stuff to wear just has to be plain skinny jeans, some girl style Vans that I have, and normal shirts from places like Pac Sun.

So more recent, in the past few months I've considered maybe trying to become a believable and actual trap. In which I could go downtown or something, and just have a good time without being noticed as a guy.

I've started shaving my body hair, and I'm working on slimming down to a more slender female body type, simply by diet for the moment. I don't want to do a whole M2F transformation with hormones and all of that quite yet. If everything were to go over well, I'm pretty sure I wouldn't mind starting on those in the future though. I really think I may start taking them though, I have a sorta deep voice which I don't really like. I'm growing my hair back out, it was a stupid decision to ever have it cut. It was the perfect length before so that I could do anything I wanted with it. Until then I have to search for sum fake hairz dat i lyke. :3

So yeah, I really have no idea why anyone would care about all of this. I'm just wondering if anybody else on here has done, or thinks the same way about anything I've said in this. There's a ton more I probably forgot to type, but I'm really horrible at remembering things to say, and creating a nice planned out thread.

Maybe if you can relate with what I'm currently experiencing you have some tips, or we can be new friends. I'm always looking for new inturwebz buddies to talk to. :| My MSN is in my siggy. Add me nao.

If you're nice and wanting to help me along with whatever I can give you a picture to see how I am doing so far. Which isn't too bad as people have thought I was a girl several times when I had hair a little longer.

Possibly will post some in this thread if I'm feeling up to it today. Or if this even gets views, never actually been to this board on Sythe, so I don't know how active ior helpful it is.

So yeah, that's me. I'm really just trying to think of how to go about everything as of now because there's so many different options; which sucks. I really hate having tons of options open to pick from cause I can't ever decide which one would be the best way to go about it. That's with like really everything though, from fast food, to what I feel like wearing.

brbI'mwaitingforallthetrollstoattempttoflamel0l0l

 

I see nothing wrong with this.
That's your choice.

If someone flames you for you lifestyle choice, they are uncomfortable about their own.

 

Yeah, I don't expect anyone to really care much about the whole thing I just kinda wanted to tell someone. In a few weeks I'm considering just going on a trip to wherever I think is right because I just have the feeling I need to. To get a way from everything that I'm not getting done where I'm at now, and just do something different.

I figure before that I'll show some of my real friends me being the me that I want to be, then I'll go on my trip.

Eh, kinda like the trip Margo took in Paper Towns. If you've read that by chance.

 

Yeah I know what you mean man.
Some people might look at you differently.

And you should know who your real friends are, which will be beside your decisions thick and thin.

 

If you feel comfortable, do it.

Those that fear change, will disagree.

 

Goodluck brah with all your goals in 2009 and never let anybody tell you what you can and can't do and if anybody else says otherwise well their opinion doesn't matter anyway cause they are probably weird for not agreeing with you and like it was said before you should be able to find out who your real friends are who knows maybe they will look up to you as motivation and release any surpressed urges they had because of your courage

 

Nobody can make up your own mind. Whatever feels right tbh.

 

Do what you feel right. Society is afraid of difference and thats THEIR fault not yours.

 

If you were my friend, after this we woud no longer be friends. I'm sure you realize the possibility of this happening anyway. I just figured in case you didn't, it's something you should definately be prepared for.

That being said as eveyone else has already stated do what you want with your life. Just make sure you have come to term with the consequences and prepare for them the best you can.

Best of luck with whatever you decide to do.

For your own safety and out of respect for the individuals you may be interacting with make sure you consider all of your actions before doing them. It's not fair to to the others to try and come off as something that you're not.

Really? I guess when a pedophile gets jailed for molesting an underage boy everyone who flames him is just uncomfortable about their own lifestyle choices.

I don't think so.

^_^ (See what I did there)

 

I agree with finn go for it my friend if it feels right

 

It's always best to accept who you are, those who truely care and love you will accept you as well. It's great to know you're doing whatever feels right.

 

Supporting Sythe members are supporting.
Thanks. And again, feel free to add me on MSN if you ever wanna' talk. I've been so bored lately.

 

Wearing ur gfs panties are normal

 

I have my own, actually. Same kind that she would wear though.

 

It's good that you've got it out there and told people. I highly respect you for that and wish you the best of luck with your future endeavors. Although I cannot relate in any way, shape or form, I respect you nonetheless and hope all works out the way you've planned it.

=]

 

I like the way your dress

Nothing wrong with it at all
Just dont make it weird lol