Friends? all bullshit

So recently I had IRL problems and one of them is my dad taking away my phone due to me performing bad on a test. I dont mind the fact he took away my phone, i have my laptop still and everything to work and enjoy.

Point being is, it's been 2-3 weeks since anyone spoke to me. The people that I usually hang out with don't ask about for shit. I told them I don't have my phone, and that facebook is available if anything.

But guess what, they plan without me and just leave me. 2nd of all for the past 7-8 years I have not celebrated my birthday with anyone, they never made me a surprise party like they do with others, they only remember my birthday because of facebook and that bullshit. They keep telling me they love me and that shit, they keep saying I am the one that makes them laugh always and shit. But that is bullcrap, what sort of fucking love is this? someone tell me?

Because of this birthday issue I had a dream 2 days ago that people were celebrating my birthday, and it was a late celebration in the dream, i remember it. But I woke up not really giving a shit because it was only a dream.

I don't feel any love coming from them at all and it's about time that I confront them soon and tell them how I feel about this shit they do to me.

Also guess what, they celebrated one of my "mates" birthdays 10 days after the original day, WHY JUST FUCKING WHY, why am I the one who has to be treated like shit, i've always made them laugh for real because I do stupid shit. They keep saying many positive things about me, yet this is how it is..

I'm sick of being left alone when I never left anyone else.
I'm sick of being there for people when they end up not being there for me.
I'm sick of being the one who goes out of the way to make people happy, yet myself I'm the one whos sad deep inside.
I'm sick of being the one for everything.

As well, i don't talk much in life. I really don't, just feels like I have nothing to say to anyone.

I don't understand friends anymore, i don't need anyone if that is how friends are.

 

Friends don't exist to serve you or return every favor you afford them. Just because you do things for them or are there for them doesn't obligate them to do it back. Especially at your age. Kids aren't mature and don't really think of anyone but themselves. Often times they only do things for others to get higher on the little HS popularity totem pole, even if they don't realize it. You're wasting your time expecting that much, or anything at all from young friends. Wait till you get out of school and everyone realizes the real value of friends to see how they treat you. At that point you may or may not want to make new, better, friends.

 

they probably are like this, because of you being the person as you are. just look at the thread u made.

 

Ahh I see, i'm 19 and im heading to university at the end of this year and I am excited for that. As of currently I do not feel the need to have any sort of friends anymore, these experiences do teach me quite alot. I've spoken to someone and I do feel relieved atm.

 

Everyone needs friends, and if your "friends" aren't giving what you need, you should try to communicate that to them, or find people who will. Also remember that the kinds of things you are looking to have your friends do for you only comes along in someone who has enough vested (have been friends for a long time) and that you must reciprocate these things to them as well.

 

Because you're in HS... Suprise birthday parties are something I'd expect from an older person, someone who's known the individual for a VERY long time. In HS most of your friends are just school mates. If you host a birthday party for yourself (which most people do anyway) and invite all your mates they'll turn up, they'd probably even be willing to help (if they're really your friends they will). If they don't turn up, well then, they aren't your friends are they.

Ps It's not a big deal and this shouldn't stop you from making new friends at University. Having no friends while at University would make the experience utterly boring.

 

It sounds like you just need to re-evaluate your friendships. I don't know what the situation is for you but I know that for me, being 22 now, I have a tight knit group of friends (like 3 or 4 close homies) instead of the diverse group I had in highschool.

So I don't know who these people are but a true friend shows that he appreciates you as a person. We're guys, so a guy not remembering your birthday is completely normal and almost expected. So it's not a bad thing to say like "hey guys, my birthdays coming up, we should do something". It's ok to be a part of your birthday planning haha, I've never had a surprise party either. So don't be afraid to say something.

I hope you find what you're looking for and if you ever need to chat about anything in life from staying clean to politics, feel free to PM me ^.^

 

Same experience here. Had lots of friends in High School but when I moved onto University I only had 4. You realize that these people are merely friendly acquaintances or school mates. It's better to have a small group of maybe 4-6 REAL friends who you can count on.

 

^ This right here sums it up perfectly. When I went to uni I made like 2-3 real friends, even though I'm not at that uni anymore they invite me over quite a lot sometimes for 7 days a time. In highschool you meet a lot of people just because you're around them a lot (obligated). In uni you do what ever you feel like doing

 

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