is there any genius here? to help me out?

So here is the thing i want to use myself in exchange of earning something good.

I was always afraid that i would never make it and so on...
anyways what i know about myself is like exactly the opposite.

For example if i say "i am going to do diet" i would like to eat more and more

or when for example yesterday i said i am going from tomorrow to start doing things like finding a way of making money or do stuff at all then more i am talking about it with my inner self i am getting the more discourage.

I am thinking that if someone could tell me a way of deceiving myself to start doings this would be great because if i say "something that i want" it becomes harder to get.

* m*an my life wouldn't get more routine that it is xD it couldn't get worse than it haha is time to change that thing into something better that's what i feel and the right i feel is coming

So if someone could see through out my head because i am stucked xD what else can i say is like for me hilarous i can't even do things right lol

If i see things like is a "need" or a "must" i can't do them i am getting anxious and getting depressed about it but what i really know is that got power inside of me overwhelming and i just can't give it to something i am just a lazy ass

so suggestions appreciate it really a lot blahhhhh thank you very much for your time reading all this.

 

When I started on an exercise program a few months back, I came to the conclusion that you genuinely have to want it.

If you don't have a solid motive you feel strongly about, it will never work, generally!

Ask yourself why you are doing it, what will the result be, and how much do you want to work to get there.