Hello! I am looking for some help and advice there. Posting with my real username just to get a picture of me and who i am because some people asked that before. Also it might make me more serious. Alright, starting it now. It all started after i finished high school. I had no idea what to do in life. Nothing interesting, i know, lot of us were there. This was 4 years ago btw. I started and finished IT System Admin school after that. I never liked that, i couldn't imagine myself working as that. I never did in the end. Sadness then depression started there. I asked for special help and got it, but couldn't help me tbh. This was 2 years ago. After finishing SysAdmin school i was scared because i couldn't get a job (bc i don't wanted to work as admin) but i had to get money somehow. I started nolifing the shit outta osrs at that time, played 18-19 hrs a day and started RWTing which got me some money. Not even bad money since gold had a better value back then and i am from a country where salaries aren't that high. This went for almost a year when someone else got me a real job on '18 summer. Oh, in that one year i had only one job interview, i lost my ineterest and confidence. This job was an 'okay' job, not too bad, not too good. But after summer they don't wanted as many workers as they did in summer and because i came last i had to go first. I did RWTing again. But since after the high school days my sadness then depression got worse every day, at this point it was really bad for the first time. I can't describe it, but feels like your brain is poked with a needle. Something shit and negative is always on your mind. Since that it's really bad, this is why i am asking for some advices and help. But to finish the story, i don't have financial problems, i did work from 13-18 yrs @ every summer and every holiday, so i am NOT lazy. And after that i did RWTing. Also had a really lucky staking session which made me more than enough and luckily it never made an addict (well, lost like $5k after but its almost nothing of the total profit i made and i realised that i wont be lucky again so cba going back anymore). Had great luck with BTC investment. Luckily, for me, money is not a problem, but i have other problem. I lost motivation and can't find it for 4+ years now. I started school this september, learning as a logistic right now, i enjoy that at the moment and would work as that in the future. But i will need more motivation just for waking up every day etc. At this moment i am doing AIO services here just to make myself a bit better and to feel like i am doing something every day. My physics health is pretty good, when i have a bit more motivation i am running or doing gym. I just shouldn't stare the screen this much. So basically, if you are still reading this, i need some life advice there, but no cliche's w/ going out more or i should eat healthier or i should do more gym. You might can do something with these extra infos so here they are: I got a few friends and i am talking and going out with them. Had an rs gf who hurt me really bad this spring/summer. (was my best friend etc) I love music, sport and art. My goal is to heal depression and get a job after. I don't know how, this is where i need YOU. EDIT: I didn't wrote this in a sad style, so it might seems like i have no big problems, but believe i do. Thank You for reading and looking for your answers!