Depressed

[Unregistered User]

This is going to be a private post, as I don't want to cause any drama.


I've grown to rely on Sythe too much, and every time I get banned, I feel insecure. It's literally the only reason I'm supporting myself at the moment, and it's scary when someone can ban you for a duration of time. Luckily, this time, I was not relying on Sythe as much due to recent events, but I still feel like shit every time I get banned, especially when I did not intentionally attempt to get banned, and followed the rules, or at least my interpretation of them.

The past two or three months, I haven't really had much going for me. I had to go on a hiatus because everything went to shit. I dropped out of college, which in turn made me feel like I relied even more on Runescape and Sythe, and I just let it all go.

I don't know. Am I overreacting? Have you guys ever felt like you got banned for no reason? I know it's just a forum, but it's more than that to me. I get the same feeling as someone would if a parent told you "I'm disappointed in you," as I feel guilty, angry, and upset at the same time. Sometimes this leads me to not thinking straight and making the situation worse.



Thanks for reading.

 

[IxI Duality IxI]

I think your overreacting. I never gotten banned yet, but then again I don't say stupid stuff to people or insert my self in idiotic situations. I'm assuming your probably in the Spam Forum talking nonsense? If not, sorry it's just the first thing that comes to mind on how to get banned the fastest.

It's just a forum so if you got banned it was obviously for a fair reason. Just wait your time, and when your back just don't do anything to offend anyone and people will appreciate your presence. (If you weren't a troublemaker before).

Cya around pal

 

It's hard to think why you'd get so upset over getting banned when in you OP you said you've been banned many times? Shouldn't you have learnt? The Sythe rules are in place for a reason. Maybe you should read over them so you know what you've done wrong and when your ban is over you could start fresh. Don't be so hard on yourself, everyone makes mistakes. But you're the only one who controls your next move.

 

[chillinggg]

It seem you are a man of principles. As such there's only one thing you can do to avoid the feeling of insecurity. Don't get banned. Do you mind sharing why you get banned so many times ? What are you doing against the rules ?

 

[Stickly]

Honestly, what I could tell you, is try and clean up your act around here. Might be hard, but I think you can handle it. Sythe seems to be a large community, and some people become close friends, it's like a second family. Try not to rely on Sythe as much also, get out there and find some hobbies.

 

[Raising Hope]

I think you should walk away and take a break from the internet for a few months. It's not healthy to be so addicted to something like this, this site is not your friend it's your escape pod to a better reality even if it's not real you still make it into your daily routine. Go outside and explore the world and leave stuff like sythe and runescape behind until your life is balanced. You need a job or something that'll get you out of the house for much of the day.

 

[Loner]

I am going to be a bit harsh and say you're overreacting I have started to really enjoy this site and I plan on sticking around for a while it is a good place to talk and get to know people. But on the flip side of that it is just a forum as well and I don't think that u should let yourself get depressed over a forum. I think you should re evaluate your life and consider going back to school.

 

[Dipshoe]

look man there is more to life than runescape and sythe. We all love rs and sythe but the ability to let go of these things and still keep living life to the fullest will make you a better man.

 

[Schoolboy Q]

Just let go man your obviously old so you just gotta move on with your life forget about runescape and maybe just come to sythe every now and then, don't depend on them. and if your having a bad day listen to bob marleys don't worry be happy, always gets me in a good mood

 

[Just]

If this site is causing you into a downwards spiral. LEAVE!. This site shouldn't control. You are bigger than this.

 

Would be nice to know which user you are, but I think you're over reacting a little bit, you shouldn't depend on some site for your happiness, I do understand a little bit I would be upset if I got banned because of how many friends I've made on here and it would suck not being able to talk to them, but I wouldn't get depressed over it, just forget about Sythe and do other things irl.

 

[iAGZzzz]

I think what you really need is a sense of purpose and direction if your life.

I just finished school and I had 4 months off till University begins in September/October. I couldn't wait for the lie ins, and days off and doing nothing all day. After I realised this doing nothing made me really really depressed. I had broken the same routine I had had for 13 years of my life and I didn't have a daily purpose of job. I was at a really big low, and I too thought I was overreacting. However we NEED to have a purpose to go on each day, thus I asked my Dad for a job at his firm, and and was more than happy to have me working and not wasting my time.

Right now I am still working, and I love having a daily routine and purpose and I feel normal again. I use my PS3/Sythe/RS much less (as my day is taken up by other things), but I still get a few hours in the relax and enjoy myself, so it also becomes more of a novelty.

If I were you seeing as you dropped out of college recently, try to find a job. If you already have a part time one, try to get a full time of so you have a daily routine, and you will be earning money at the same time.

I know EXACTLY where you are coming from as I have had a pretty rough last 6 months. The whole being banned issue is a mental block you have, as another distraction/thing to do has gone out of the window, thus you are finding yourself empty again.

Trust me, try getting a job and get a routine/purpose back into your life. Let me know how you are getting on, always up for a chat if you need one