I have had an experience one night; not a hallucination, not a near-death experience. It was a REAL death experience. I wasn't hit by a car or shot or anything. I was exploring my brain with the help of a very large dose of DXM, 1500mg to be exact. I will share my experience and then gather what I've learned and try to summarize what it'll be like after life ends.
I was having intense euphoria and decided to focus on the incredible feelings, so I closed my eyes and began to lose every contact with everything material. I had a few CEV's (closed eye visuals) and then (I really can't describe the experience with human words and labels but I'll try to. Anything in quotes I hesitate to use because it doesn't really describe it right.) I ceased to exist as a human. I "became" a aura of energy. During the experience I had no understanding of what a human or life was. Only when I came down could I process`what had actually happened to me. During this experience I didn't know if I was dead or still alive. It didn't matter because I didn't care. I had no need for human labels on what existence meant. As energy I was terrified but at the same time, I was the most peaceful I had ever been. I didn't need to associate things or work to think because I had no need for a brain or consciousness. About my surroundings, I was "floating" (can't think of a word to actually describe it because there was no sense of how high or low i was) around a black plane that was marked by bright green grid lines that seemed to dance and warp when I focused my energy on them. I could control my surroundings but it didn't matter because I had no need to. I gained no joy out of it and stopped because I only wanted to experience the lifelessness. It "felt" amazing to not have to "feel" anything. We truly are unaware of what this life requires us to do. I sit here, trying to remember what else I can describe. Realizing that I don't have the descriptive words to, I am frustrated because I just know that I was meant to find this out. During the same trip, I "met" with a "being" who was shaped much like a cloud that constantly changed colors and shapes. I hesitate to use "he" or "she" because, again, labels didn't matter. I also don't feel right saying that this "cloud" talked to me because there is no such thing as language when you leave. The cloud simply gave me a command to tell my experience and to share with everyone what I have learned. I have been sent by this cloud to explain to the world that there is no heaven,no hell, no rebirth, no nirvana or anything like that. All of those above require us to still have feelings and require us to understand what is going around us by way of labels.
In summary: The biggest thing is that we have no attachment to material things and useless labels. We have no need to feel both physical things and emotional things. We don't feel sorrow but at the same time we don't feel joy. Some may say this is peaceful, but that's the mistake, you can't say it's peaceful because it's just another label. You don't know what stress (opposite of peaceful) is. In reality you really don't know "anything" but at the same time you know everything. We finally can fulfill our humanly wish to be able to control our "environment" but it doesn't matter because we are no longer humans that wish to do so.
I don't encourage drug use, especially when used to find spiritual things out. But I can't help but thinking that this combination of elements, c18h25no, was meant to be invented or discovered for the soul purpose of unlocking the answer to death to someone. This someone is me. If you wish to experience this, good luck. I've tried multiple times since then to reach the same state but always over-shoot the dose or under-shoot it.
The biggest and best thing I got out of this experience is that I no longer fear death. In fact, if I were to be told that I had only a few hours to live: I'd be more peaceful than ever before because this mystery is solved.
Remember that (although I'm 100% sure that I'm correct because of my personal experience) I can understand that some people would have their own theories about what happens when we pass. I'd like to hear them and welcome your educated opinion on what happens when we die. I don't want to read "if you're good you go to heaven and if you sin you go to hell because the bible says so" a million times. Feel free to back up what you think with your own thoughts with experiences or feelings that you believe, not a been brainwashed to believe by religion or society.
Please ask questions if you're more curious about my experience. I love to talk about this subject and since it's my duty to tell the world, I welcome all queries.
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