a vent if you will

im in my own mind right now. its a rare thing. im questioning life and nothing makes sense.
if we dont even know why we are here, nothing else matters because life is a pardox. its hard putting
this into real words. all the things we created cause us to blur out, there are so many things happening at once
but in my mind i can see everything clearly. i see a situation and i know endless different ways to do it and i know
the best ones to chose. it feels like im cheating life. i can predict everything, i can read your mind. i can read your
body language. i dont know why i can, but i can. some times its scarey, some times i use it to my advantage. i dont always
like what i do, but i get what i want. This world feels artificle, too good to be true. anything i want, i can have
is this real life, or is this just my crazy mind wordering off. right now, i have the best job i could want, it pays really
nice and im bored of life. i want my mind to be put to use, please god, please, let me be something
i can be a great ruler, i know life and i feel living (my senses) through a frame. i see all my senses mixed together and
it always points me in the right direction. let me be a CEO, entrepreneur*, polition* (i even know to put that instead of what i was thinking)
im just too good at life. I never make mistakes, when i do, its because i let it happen. i have been careless in the past, but i have no drive
put me up to something, and i will succeed. why does life want to waste such a briliant mind? give me the chance and i will do everything right.
i excell at math, its too easy. i dont even need a calulator to figure out caluclous problems. life is all based on the future on how things will be
but no one really realies that its what you do at this very instant that matters, being in the present, and feeling fufulled
is the best feeling. breathing the air, thats meant for me, feeling the skin of my lover. it doesn't matter what you do, but if you do it might as
well be right. life only puts up a minimal amount of challanges. its a breeze to get past in my life. what i do with my mind, all this thinking, could be put to
use. i've never liked writing before, its not my tallent, i am being completely honest. i just have nothing better to do
even while suceeding at everything. i feel crazy, always in my mind. but its not fair, you put me through this. let me be more
i am destinded to do something great. but me, being born as me, stuck as me, has no chance to become his dreams. money is not a problem?
yes its the worst problem. give me enough money, and i can do everything right. money makes money, and then it rolls on and on. all you need
is a chance. yet me, im stuck with a limited amount to make it work. i know the best options right now, and im doing the best i can do
im winning in the game of life, or so it feels. even though i have evertthing going for me, i still have everything else coming against me
at equally maybe greater force. but this is the simpile equation to life. understand this and it all makes sense. many people appear slow,
you and i are the gifted ones. the ones who think outside of life, and in life at the same time. taking in the present, and getting the future.
its almost too crazy. everything works according to you. everything based on actions. and you can manipulate them going to what you want.
maybe im alone, but i see past everyone, i can read your whole life story based on what you do. when im in a certain place, i know everything
about it. and every situation, and the best outcomes. i want more but i cant have. this is the bad force of life pushing against you. life live now
talk to people you wanna talk to. have relationships with people you want to have relationships with. what ever makes you feel good inside, is what
living is all about. if writing is all that i can do right now with my mind, i might as well use it. instead of waste it on countless hours of
thinking in my mind. tv is borning, the outcome is obvious, dont waste my mind on thissss (no cursing) mindless thrill for the dumb. i can't stand it
sometimes. but i dont let it affect me, to each their own. i just would prefer to use my mind solving world problems. managing mutlimillion dollar companies,
i think a thousand times faster than the normal. and i like to be in company of smart people, it makes me feel more sane, i actully contribute and add onto good ideas
i can't help it, i make things better. if your doing something, i can tell you how to do it better.

 

This section is for Personal Support. You are in no way asking for help thus making your thread spam/pointless.

You're probably just on drugs, if that's what you're asking.

 

Agreed. This forms are for people who need help.